coming across old text messages
makes me want to puke
makes it hard to breathe...
what you said in them,
the words couldn't be sweeter
but they do become more painful at every viewing without failure.
how can we kiss without wanting it again?
how can we hug without not wanting to separate?
how can your head lay there on my chest...
without feeling a comfort everlasting?
how can your laughter not mean you're happy?
"i'll never be the same,
yeah...I'll never be the same again..." Note:- these particular lines have been stolen, from the following song:-
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Now playing: The Honorary Title - Only One Week
via FoxyTunes
this song is like something i wrote in my sleep, except that i can't write, bleh...wish i could. it's such an attractive quality. one that men use to portray so many lies, i wouldn't though...although, now that i think of it...im happy i can't write poetry or prose or anything very well, because i believe that the ability to write well makes you deceitful.if you can write the stories of fictional characters, you tend to weave some of the 'fiction' in your own lives to screw with people's brains (e.g seduction, serenading)...ugh...that's why i hate male writers, except the humorous ones...I'd rather write the truth about myself and the world in the form of un-beautiful mediocre text.
lyrics of 'only one week':-
Have your lips graced another's yet or am I the only one?
Every time I try to speak to you, those are the thoughts that run
Say something else girl, I don't wanna have to leave
Our communication is hardly what it used to be
When can I claim you to be
My own, so selfishly?
When can I claim you to be
My own, my only?
Want nothing more than our futures to collide
Can't tell this is gonna be one of many disappointing nights
Traces of you are so minimal
A black and white by photo booth with us
When can I claim you to be
My own, so selfishly?
When can I claim you to be
My own, my only?
And I have only one week to make you mine
And I may never see you again
It's not only for me, it's not only for me
There's a little bit, little bit here for you
But I'm willing to wait, I'm willing
Day time is no longer the hours spent
[Incomprehensible] rather the hours to obsess
And the night is far worse
'Cause I know you're alone with her
And thoughts of, of us have been deserted
It will never be the same
I'll never be the same again
I will never be the same again
I have only one week to make you mine
And I may never see you again
Time is few and far between
There is someone else who needs
There is someone else who needs your attention
But I'm willing to wait, I am willing to wait
I'm willing to wait, I'm willing to wait
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
the log blog experiment...
yesterday (sunday august 24th 2008), i carried a notebook around with me, loggign my day and stupid thoughts...now im putting it all here:-
log start - 1:16 p.m, place - coffee stop/cheap xerox place, model colony, pune
when I've got my headphones on, communication with people seems like an avoidable unnecessary thing, it's like 'let's get it over with'
now playing - coldplay - violet hill
*moves foot to the beats*
the clouds look pretty kickass today. the sun is just a little higher than 'just right', actually it just turned to much higher that that!! argh!! need shade!! now im just sitting around waiting for some 'xeroxes' for tomorrow's exam to come around listening to people talk about what they've eaten since morning
log stop 1:32 p.m
log start 2:19 p.m, place - bench opposite spencer's, model colony
just had a heavy lunch, alone, have been walking around to make stressed out tummy feel better, walked the length of one 'nude' by 'Radiohead'
Now playing- Oasis - Supersonic
sitting on the benches across spencer's in model colony (hey they mention 'yellow submarine' in the lyrics!!) The clouds still look kickass, except for this little menacing bunch of dark ones in a corner, but i don't fear them, they 'menaced' yesterday too, and it didn't rain at all yesterday :) this bench is nice! also an awesome breeze has somehow started blowing, im contemplating going up to dhriv's terrace...*looks up to the terrace* bleh, too much of a climb...
i have the phrase -
'our weapon, is sound,
our weapons are loud'
stuck in my head!! i love shaair and func, what lovely people!!love every word of the lyrics and the things they say, YEAH!!
Now playing - The Beatles - If i fell (in love with you)
Monica is an amazing creature, what kickass people!! now, SOHO's management are choots, this gig should have been in the SOHO's 'club' area, where people dance, not int eh 'Italian restaurant' area! advertised as 'livealive: a night of fusion and jazz' when did anyone allow you to to genre0lize shaair and func? and so wrong-ish! People probably expected a 'dinner band' which they obviously aren't
Now playing - Yeah Yeah Yeahs - They don't love you like i love you
i'm floored by Snf, they had been mentioned to me before, i wanted to get my hands on some of their music, and then i find out they're playing in pune through gigpad.com, yay!! i had been listening to their tracks streaming from their website some hours before the gig-time, while showering, (well, i didn't actually shower, the water was cold)..erm...but i did loaf around my house, picking things up, listening to their music again, lovely, lovely lyrics.
Now playing - Jack johnson - What you thought you need
I feel like apologizing for the sad crowd, but they were pretty misinformed. Damn they shouls have thrown you people into the club, damn damn damn!! the 'dancing' crowd would have been hit with you like a grenade!! (sorry will smith) and i jsut got a call from a friend who's intrigued about the fact that i parked my bke in front of her house and didn't come to visit...bleh...social obligations, being social is so not necessary.
Now Playing - The beatles - Lucy in the sky with diamonds
People and their needs always slow you down when you're just 'socializing' for the sake of it
.......long pause........
this is pretty stupid, im going to sleep.
log stop 2:44 p.m
log start 3:25 p.m, place - Garima's house
Now Playing - The Beatles - Hey jude
woken up by the burning sun, whew. Ah, there it goes behind some nice nice clouds, i gonna go now
......long pause.......
now im just sitting at Garima's place, whew, can't think, can't write, can't sleep.
log stop 3:40 p.m
log start 3:47 p.m, still at Garima's place
im now lying on Garima's bed, she's on a video call with some guy, i have my music on, i could eavesdrop if i wanted but bleh...let it be...i want shaair and func's music!! and i want it now!! waaaaah!! my fingers and the back of this pen constantly keep beating on the notebook to the beat of the song im listening to :)
Now Playing - Joseph Arthur - Honey and the moon
........long pause coz kanika suddenly called on my phone...
log stop 4:11 p.m
log start - 1:16 p.m, place - coffee stop/cheap xerox place, model colony, pune
when I've got my headphones on, communication with people seems like an avoidable unnecessary thing, it's like 'let's get it over with'
now playing - coldplay - violet hill
*moves foot to the beats*
the clouds look pretty kickass today. the sun is just a little higher than 'just right', actually it just turned to much higher that that!! argh!! need shade!! now im just sitting around waiting for some 'xeroxes' for tomorrow's exam to come around listening to people talk about what they've eaten since morning
log stop 1:32 p.m
log start 2:19 p.m, place - bench opposite spencer's, model colony
just had a heavy lunch, alone, have been walking around to make stressed out tummy feel better, walked the length of one 'nude' by 'Radiohead'
Now playing- Oasis - Supersonic
sitting on the benches across spencer's in model colony (hey they mention 'yellow submarine' in the lyrics!!) The clouds still look kickass, except for this little menacing bunch of dark ones in a corner, but i don't fear them, they 'menaced' yesterday too, and it didn't rain at all yesterday :) this bench is nice! also an awesome breeze has somehow started blowing, im contemplating going up to dhriv's terrace...*looks up to the terrace* bleh, too much of a climb...
i have the phrase -
'our weapon, is sound,
our weapons are loud'
stuck in my head!! i love shaair and func, what lovely people!!love every word of the lyrics and the things they say, YEAH!!
Now playing - The Beatles - If i fell (in love with you)
Monica is an amazing creature, what kickass people!! now, SOHO's management are choots, this gig should have been in the SOHO's 'club' area, where people dance, not int eh 'Italian restaurant' area! advertised as 'livealive: a night of fusion and jazz' when did anyone allow you to to genre0lize shaair and func? and so wrong-ish! People probably expected a 'dinner band' which they obviously aren't
Now playing - Yeah Yeah Yeahs - They don't love you like i love you
i'm floored by Snf, they had been mentioned to me before, i wanted to get my hands on some of their music, and then i find out they're playing in pune through gigpad.com, yay!! i had been listening to their tracks streaming from their website some hours before the gig-time, while showering, (well, i didn't actually shower, the water was cold)..erm...but i did loaf around my house, picking things up, listening to their music again, lovely, lovely lyrics.
Now playing - Jack johnson - What you thought you need
I feel like apologizing for the sad crowd, but they were pretty misinformed. Damn they shouls have thrown you people into the club, damn damn damn!! the 'dancing' crowd would have been hit with you like a grenade!! (sorry will smith) and i jsut got a call from a friend who's intrigued about the fact that i parked my bke in front of her house and didn't come to visit...bleh...social obligations, being social is so not necessary.
Now Playing - The beatles - Lucy in the sky with diamonds
People and their needs always slow you down when you're just 'socializing' for the sake of it
.......long pause........
this is pretty stupid, im going to sleep.
log stop 2:44 p.m
log start 3:25 p.m, place - Garima's house
Now Playing - The Beatles - Hey jude
woken up by the burning sun, whew. Ah, there it goes behind some nice nice clouds, i gonna go now
......long pause.......
now im just sitting at Garima's place, whew, can't think, can't write, can't sleep.
log stop 3:40 p.m
log start 3:47 p.m, still at Garima's place
im now lying on Garima's bed, she's on a video call with some guy, i have my music on, i could eavesdrop if i wanted but bleh...let it be...i want shaair and func's music!! and i want it now!! waaaaah!! my fingers and the back of this pen constantly keep beating on the notebook to the beat of the song im listening to :)
Now Playing - Joseph Arthur - Honey and the moon
........long pause coz kanika suddenly called on my phone...
log stop 4:11 p.m
Saturday, August 09, 2008
rantings on possessions, sweet girls, and retards...(actual retards, not my friends)...
the things you own, end up owning you... - Tyler durden
being able to walk around town without any worries is bloody liberating, i almost wish i didn't have insurance for my possessions!!
she...is the sweetest thing ever...(ooh the pixies sound so much like the Beatles sometimes!!) like this liqueur chocolate with extra strong liqueur, that is intoxicating enough to make you not care about all the other shit in the world, her company makes you wanna kick the starving kids in Africa to death because they just don't seem important (i never cared too much about them anyway)
speaking of kids, i went to this 'retard meeting place' recently, some of my friends like to go there and meet them and be all nice and they keep saying "they're so sweet!!" etc etc, why the hell do you wanna do that? i mean, seriously, i was freaked out!! these people are not that developed mentally, but look at their lives, (and this thought has been put into my head by a fictional character, one Gregory house) they don't have to be nice to everyone, they don't have to learn to say the right thing at the right time, they don't have to adhere to social formalities, any mistake they make is a 'adorable', people like to say 'it's so sad how unfortunate they are' they're bloody fortunate!! to live a life without judgment!! they can crap in their pants and they'll be helped out and not mocked...and yeah i think it's just wrong to be giving the retards 'special treatment', they're human after all, however childish they may be, they're still assholes on the inside like any of us...their assholeness is just taken as 'adorable activities', if i spit on somebody it'd start a feud, these guys get laughter and sweetness, bleh...
it's hard juggling blogs, random rants sometimes jsut end up turning into redable material!! (kinda..hehe)
this was originally neing written only for http://angadrandom.blogspot.com/ but here it is, on the other one too (http://sharanx182.blogspot.com)
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Now playing: Pixies - Here Comes Your Man
via FoxyTunes
being able to walk around town without any worries is bloody liberating, i almost wish i didn't have insurance for my possessions!!
she...is the sweetest thing ever...(ooh the pixies sound so much like the Beatles sometimes!!) like this liqueur chocolate with extra strong liqueur, that is intoxicating enough to make you not care about all the other shit in the world, her company makes you wanna kick the starving kids in Africa to death because they just don't seem important (i never cared too much about them anyway)
speaking of kids, i went to this 'retard meeting place' recently, some of my friends like to go there and meet them and be all nice and they keep saying "they're so sweet!!" etc etc, why the hell do you wanna do that? i mean, seriously, i was freaked out!! these people are not that developed mentally, but look at their lives, (and this thought has been put into my head by a fictional character, one Gregory house) they don't have to be nice to everyone, they don't have to learn to say the right thing at the right time, they don't have to adhere to social formalities, any mistake they make is a 'adorable', people like to say 'it's so sad how unfortunate they are' they're bloody fortunate!! to live a life without judgment!! they can crap in their pants and they'll be helped out and not mocked...and yeah i think it's just wrong to be giving the retards 'special treatment', they're human after all, however childish they may be, they're still assholes on the inside like any of us...their assholeness is just taken as 'adorable activities', if i spit on somebody it'd start a feud, these guys get laughter and sweetness, bleh...
it's hard juggling blogs, random rants sometimes jsut end up turning into redable material!! (kinda..hehe)
this was originally neing written only for http://angadrandom.blogspot.com/ but here it is, on the other one too (http://sharanx182.blogspot.com)
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Now playing: Pixies - Here Comes Your Man
via FoxyTunes
change is inevitable...
many times in literature and the throes of cheesy dialogue do we hear the lines "if he/she loves you, he/she should take you as you are" (we're gonna stick with 'she' now, it's easier) i.e a person would say to you "i wouldn't change a thing in you" or "i don't want you to have to change for me, it isn't right"
come on, who are you kidding? nobody's perfect (cliched, but true) if you're with somebody, there are some habits or behavioral patterns that you definitely would like to change...although you learn to live with every bit of these things, given a choice, you'd change a lot...and now let's look at the other side, if you really care for someone you'd want to change for them yourself!! ideally, i don't like keeping my house clean or shirts folded or ironed or anything, im just lazy, but if somebody i care for would be happy if i did, i would!! we humans enjoy making other humans close to us happy...unconditional or otherwise, I'd be happy to see you happy, you'd be my reason to fold my shirts, because let's face it, folding shirts is, good for me too, i know that...but i can live without doing that...but when i know im being asked to because im cared for, it feels nice :) every shirt folded, every bed made, every bit of the house kept clean...would make you feel nice when you do it, because you know that this change matters...a man in love, would do anything to make his interest happy, and these are all just metaphors and/or examples...change, is very welcome if it is for someone you love...of course that doesn't mean i transform into this prim and proper gentleman, we don't want a transformation, we just want you to care for us to tweak ourselves :) im dying to change...kinda...ok that doesn't make much sense...
men will be truly men only without women...and neither of the two 'positions' are comparable...except that we have the option to 'drop out' of a relationship :-P (though nobody would do that to be a 'man' again unless they have a truly intolerable woman)
im talking about something very typical...not all women and men can identify with this situation...it's a point of view over a fictional story...something made up...something which actually follows certain norms, hmmmmm....im so tempted to contradict myself right now!! but for that you need the example of 'the perfect woman'...agh...all women, however 'liberal' or 'chilled out' have some common unavoidable traits...it's ok, we do like women for those :)
a quote, totally contradictory:-
when asked about marriage:- "we're a generation of men raised by women, I'm wondering if another woman is really the answer we need" - Tyler Durden
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Now playing: Frou Frou - Breathe In
via FoxyTunes
come on, who are you kidding? nobody's perfect (cliched, but true) if you're with somebody, there are some habits or behavioral patterns that you definitely would like to change...although you learn to live with every bit of these things, given a choice, you'd change a lot...and now let's look at the other side, if you really care for someone you'd want to change for them yourself!! ideally, i don't like keeping my house clean or shirts folded or ironed or anything, im just lazy, but if somebody i care for would be happy if i did, i would!! we humans enjoy making other humans close to us happy...unconditional or otherwise, I'd be happy to see you happy, you'd be my reason to fold my shirts, because let's face it, folding shirts is, good for me too, i know that...but i can live without doing that...but when i know im being asked to because im cared for, it feels nice :) every shirt folded, every bed made, every bit of the house kept clean...would make you feel nice when you do it, because you know that this change matters...a man in love, would do anything to make his interest happy, and these are all just metaphors and/or examples...change, is very welcome if it is for someone you love...of course that doesn't mean i transform into this prim and proper gentleman, we don't want a transformation, we just want you to care for us to tweak ourselves :) im dying to change...kinda...ok that doesn't make much sense...
men will be truly men only without women...and neither of the two 'positions' are comparable...except that we have the option to 'drop out' of a relationship :-P (though nobody would do that to be a 'man' again unless they have a truly intolerable woman)
im talking about something very typical...not all women and men can identify with this situation...it's a point of view over a fictional story...something made up...something which actually follows certain norms, hmmmmm....im so tempted to contradict myself right now!! but for that you need the example of 'the perfect woman'...agh...all women, however 'liberal' or 'chilled out' have some common unavoidable traits...it's ok, we do like women for those :)
a quote, totally contradictory:-
when asked about marriage:- "we're a generation of men raised by women, I'm wondering if another woman is really the answer we need" - Tyler Durden
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Now playing: Frou Frou - Breathe In
via FoxyTunes
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
this doesn't need a title...i don't wanna give it one!!
spending even a penny on religious artifacts is the worst form of asskissing ever, also you're kissing the ass of an inanimate person...you're like, licking the ass of..er...god! why do these idiots spend money on making gold idols to worship?? like god is gonna come and say-
"oooooooh is that me? how cool i look in the form of that gold statue of myself!! im gonna drop a shitload of cash on you as a form of a return on your investment coz you're giving me so much superficial happiness!! i really need to be made more famous!! it's like the micheal jackson statue!! how cool!! i feel so kickass!! im popular!! yay!! good that you did that..i was gonna hurt you and your family...coz i was feeling depressed and unloved...some of the other people on that thing i made, what was that? earth..yeah..seem to not like me too much!! about 1 or 2%, im gonna fucking smite them!! yeah use that metal i created..gold..to make copies of me in the form that you think i look like :) im so happy!! yay!!"
you guys suck!! you only spend money on expensive 'god' items coz you want your friends to know how much money you have!!
in other news, e-square ruined my viewing of 'the dark knight' coz of their crappy sound...but i enjoyed it in adlabs today :)
random things i wanna say:-
-giving up is liberation
-the joker, from 'the dark knight'...is my favorite fictional character right now...
also i was just browsing for lyrics on songmeanings.com , posted under the lyrics to 'Your own disaster' by 'taking back sunday' were some really, really relatable personal experiences by people...it is just..so...heartbreaking!! i never thought i'd use this word but it all is!! the lyrics are these:-
Just think of this and me
as just a few of many things
to lie around, to clutter up your shelves
And I wish you weren't worth the wait
cause there's something's I'd like to say to you
And I don't think that you know what you've been missing
Cause I don't think that you know what you've been missing
And I dare you to forget
the marks you left across my neck
from those nights when we were both found at our best
Now I could make this obvious and you
you could deny me all in one breath
you could shrug me off your shoulders
And I don't think that you know what you've been missing
Cause I don't think that you know what you've been missing
And I don't think that you know,
I said I don't think you know,
I said I don't think that you know what you've been missing
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
Hey lush, have fun
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
Hey lush, have fun
(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun (just forget me, it's that simple)
(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
(just forget me, it's that simple)
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
(just forget me, it's that simple)
Just forget me, it's that simple [11x]
(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
(just forget me, it's that simple)
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
(just forget me, it's that simple)
(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Just forget me it's that simple
and this is where this all was happening:-
http://www.songmeanings.net/lyric.php?lid=143779
some girl/guy posted in the comments:-
"you could deny me, all in one breath you could shrug me off your shoulders" :*(
yeah that's my favorite (can this word actually be used to describe the situation?) line from the song too...er...random person :)
sometimes instead of talking...i could just recite lyrics...some of them speak so bloody well for me!!
i hate my life...
a usb 3.0 emotions transfer device might be useful right now...coz i really think that saying it is better than saying nothing at all...that device would prolly give one the feeling of "it's all up in the air, and we stand still to see what comes down", at least it's 'all' up in the air :) this line is from the fray's 'she is'...and yeah if you're unclear about the 'emotion transfer device' refer to this:-
http://sharanx182.blogspot.com/2007/11/usb-30-emotion-speed-transfer-review.html
although i feel differently about the post now...pretty different..i think I'd see the girl in a very different light if i knew that she likes me in the same manner that i like...er...my interest :)
'taking back sunday' is an amazing band....wow...
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Now playing: Taking Back Sunday - One-Eighty By Summer
via FoxyTunes
"oooooooh is that me? how cool i look in the form of that gold statue of myself!! im gonna drop a shitload of cash on you as a form of a return on your investment coz you're giving me so much superficial happiness!! i really need to be made more famous!! it's like the micheal jackson statue!! how cool!! i feel so kickass!! im popular!! yay!! good that you did that..i was gonna hurt you and your family...coz i was feeling depressed and unloved...some of the other people on that thing i made, what was that? earth..yeah..seem to not like me too much!! about 1 or 2%, im gonna fucking smite them!! yeah use that metal i created..gold..to make copies of me in the form that you think i look like :) im so happy!! yay!!"
you guys suck!! you only spend money on expensive 'god' items coz you want your friends to know how much money you have!!
in other news, e-square ruined my viewing of 'the dark knight' coz of their crappy sound...but i enjoyed it in adlabs today :)
random things i wanna say:-
-giving up is liberation
-the joker, from 'the dark knight'...is my favorite fictional character right now...
also i was just browsing for lyrics on songmeanings.com , posted under the lyrics to 'Your own disaster' by 'taking back sunday' were some really, really relatable personal experiences by people...it is just..so...heartbreaking!! i never thought i'd use this word but it all is!! the lyrics are these:-
Just think of this and me
as just a few of many things
to lie around, to clutter up your shelves
And I wish you weren't worth the wait
cause there's something's I'd like to say to you
And I don't think that you know what you've been missing
Cause I don't think that you know what you've been missing
And I dare you to forget
the marks you left across my neck
from those nights when we were both found at our best
Now I could make this obvious and you
you could deny me all in one breath
you could shrug me off your shoulders
And I don't think that you know what you've been missing
Cause I don't think that you know what you've been missing
And I don't think that you know,
I said I don't think you know,
I said I don't think that you know what you've been missing
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
Hey lush, have fun
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
Hey lush, have fun
(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun (just forget me, it's that simple)
(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
(just forget me, it's that simple)
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
(just forget me, it's that simple)
Just forget me, it's that simple [11x]
(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
(just forget me, it's that simple)
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
(just forget me, it's that simple)
(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Just forget me it's that simple
and this is where this all was happening:-
http://www.songmeanings.net/lyric.php?lid=143779
some girl/guy posted in the comments:-
"you could deny me, all in one breath you could shrug me off your shoulders" :*(
yeah that's my favorite (can this word actually be used to describe the situation?) line from the song too...er...random person :)
sometimes instead of talking...i could just recite lyrics...some of them speak so bloody well for me!!
i hate my life...
a usb 3.0 emotions transfer device might be useful right now...coz i really think that saying it is better than saying nothing at all...that device would prolly give one the feeling of "it's all up in the air, and we stand still to see what comes down", at least it's 'all' up in the air :) this line is from the fray's 'she is'...and yeah if you're unclear about the 'emotion transfer device' refer to this:-
http://sharanx182.blogspot.com/2007/11/usb-30-emotion-speed-transfer-review.html
although i feel differently about the post now...pretty different..i think I'd see the girl in a very different light if i knew that she likes me in the same manner that i like...er...my interest :)
'taking back sunday' is an amazing band....wow...
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Now playing: Taking Back Sunday - One-Eighty By Summer
via FoxyTunes
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
technology may not be perfect, but it sure beats a wig full of angry bunnies
i saw this 'sheep in the big city' episode recently...
it was basically about technology kicking sheep's ass in the big city, all kinds of shitty luck...and then he somehow goes back into time using a time machine (the show is very weird) and he finds happiness, he's somewhere in ancient greece or something...and there are these people who are really nice to him, he's having the time of his life!! no technology to bother him!! but then he realizes that those people are making him happy happy coz 'lady medusington' likes her 'sacrifices' to be kept happy...now, this delightful woman, is lady medusington:-
and her wig full of angry bunnies!! (obviously this is a satire of medusa, the mythical character who had snakes for hair) :-
ow, lady medusington throws her wig on sheep to attack him, the wig keeps bouncing up and down on him, hurting him!! poor sheep....
then he gets an idea, he takes out some seeds:-
buries and waters them:-
instantly, carrots grow!!:-
he hands them to the angry bunnies, and they're happy and leave him alone :) so cute!! hehe....
so this made me laugh like a crazy guy for a long time :-P you have to see this episode!! you have to worship the chow creators!! the show is so...damn...funny!!! buahahahahahahahahahahaha!! :-P
and yeah, after sheep does this, we get to hear lady medusington saying lines like "you ruined my angry bunnies!!!" (with a heavily rolling 'r', arrrr)
and
"i'll get you, you bunny ruiner!!"
heeheeheehee....
it was basically about technology kicking sheep's ass in the big city, all kinds of shitty luck...and then he somehow goes back into time using a time machine (the show is very weird) and he finds happiness, he's somewhere in ancient greece or something...and there are these people who are really nice to him, he's having the time of his life!! no technology to bother him!! but then he realizes that those people are making him happy happy coz 'lady medusington' likes her 'sacrifices' to be kept happy...now, this delightful woman, is lady medusington:-
and her wig full of angry bunnies!! (obviously this is a satire of medusa, the mythical character who had snakes for hair) :-
ow, lady medusington throws her wig on sheep to attack him, the wig keeps bouncing up and down on him, hurting him!! poor sheep....
then he gets an idea, he takes out some seeds:-
buries and waters them:-
instantly, carrots grow!!:-
he hands them to the angry bunnies, and they're happy and leave him alone :) so cute!! hehe....
so this made me laugh like a crazy guy for a long time :-P you have to see this episode!! you have to worship the chow creators!! the show is so...damn...funny!!! buahahahahahahahahahahaha!! :-P
and yeah, after sheep does this, we get to hear lady medusington saying lines like "you ruined my angry bunnies!!!" (with a heavily rolling 'r', arrrr)
and
"i'll get you, you bunny ruiner!!"
heeheeheehee....
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
our country definitely needs a 'common sense committee', the members of which should be elected by people with the highest education levels/awards/whatever in the age range of 18-25, and...the members should be outsourced, rich and sarcastic. and very, very emotionless and...um...yeah something like that.
bleh...and yeah the committees decisions should be final and all powerful.
bleh...and yeah the committees decisions should be final and all powerful.
Friday, May 23, 2008
'the notebook'??!!??
i just saw 'the notebook', and to be honest, i don't know what to say...
it wasn't as bad as so many human males told me (except one, this strange guy at WNS,hehe)
but it wasn't as good as so many human females told me...
now, i might have liked it if i didn't find it that predictable, and i found it predictable because i had seen this hindi movie "u, me aur hum", which has totally ripped off the concept and i had heard about this... (now i feel guilty for saying 'ripped off' because i liked the movie, the hindi one, except the first one hour)
whatever, watching the hindi...um...'similar concept movie' ruined my experience of watching the original....kinda...i liked it, but could have liked it better if i hadn't come across the concept before...and as most hindi movies somehow manage (fake bastards) they made the ending a bit happier :-P
so...as a result...i came out after watching the hindi movie with a 'warm fuzzy feeling', that feeling, maybe, could have belonged to 'the notebook' had i seen it before!! but would the hindi one still succeed in the same?? ARRGHHH!! im just pissed...but 'the notebook' wasn't bad...not bad at all...and im being generous here...im happy i got this bit of curiosity off my chest...
it wasn't as bad as so many human males told me (except one, this strange guy at WNS,hehe)
but it wasn't as good as so many human females told me...
now, i might have liked it if i didn't find it that predictable, and i found it predictable because i had seen this hindi movie "u, me aur hum", which has totally ripped off the concept and i had heard about this... (now i feel guilty for saying 'ripped off' because i liked the movie, the hindi one, except the first one hour)
whatever, watching the hindi...um...'similar concept movie' ruined my experience of watching the original....kinda...i liked it, but could have liked it better if i hadn't come across the concept before...and as most hindi movies somehow manage (fake bastards) they made the ending a bit happier :-P
so...as a result...i came out after watching the hindi movie with a 'warm fuzzy feeling', that feeling, maybe, could have belonged to 'the notebook' had i seen it before!! but would the hindi one still succeed in the same?? ARRGHHH!! im just pissed...but 'the notebook' wasn't bad...not bad at all...and im being generous here...im happy i got this bit of curiosity off my chest...
Saturday, May 17, 2008
MP3
im doing something which i thought would be pretty fun to do :-P
currently watching this movie called MP3 (mera pehla pehla pyar), in VLC player behind this window, i've just paused the movie..taking abreak...and im gonna be logging my views as i watch it :)
im at this point in the movie:- 0:45:04
at this point these two kids (teenagers) are looking at each other standing in the rain...with a song playing in the background..
the movie has been pretty enjoyable up till now, very relatable because of the way the main character introduces his friends, the stereotypes, which are very recognizable!! :-P only thing that has ticked me off up till now is that pathetic little song they threw in that his friend's sang for him, wtf? it's been pretty funny too, the movie :)
note: i seriously don't have anythign else to watch, but this aint too bad up till now!!
ok...now im gonna watch the movie...
ciao... (wait for updates)
now,
im at this point in the movie:- 0:50:48
what the FUCK is wrong with this movie?? couldn't the script writers come up with a better reason for a fight? god!!!
now,
im at this point in the movie:- 0:59:00
though the time doesn't matter, fuck this girl is HOT/cute in a way very different from all these typical movie stars/models :-P very good casting!! very believable looking actors :)
now,
im at this point in the movie:- 1:01:11
in the squash court,fakest laugh, EVER!!
watching the credits now...
it was, a pretty entertaining movie, not too bad to pass the night away :) and i kinda liked the title track...bleh...
although it was kinda predictable around the end...the plot was stupid too now that i think of it...hmmmm...whatever...
their chemistry is kinda weird, these two...hehe
i feel like such an idiot now to have dedicated a whole blog post to this movie....
also one more thing, i can't beleive they were able to conjure up only 7,000 for him!! after this movie released, i sold my old 40 gb monochrome iPod for 8,000 to a guy, heehee...so these people in the movie are pretty pathetic salesmen :)
also in this frame, she looks like rachel bilson!!:-
currently watching this movie called MP3 (mera pehla pehla pyar), in VLC player behind this window, i've just paused the movie..taking abreak...and im gonna be logging my views as i watch it :)
im at this point in the movie:- 0:45:04
at this point these two kids (teenagers) are looking at each other standing in the rain...with a song playing in the background..
the movie has been pretty enjoyable up till now, very relatable because of the way the main character introduces his friends, the stereotypes, which are very recognizable!! :-P only thing that has ticked me off up till now is that pathetic little song they threw in that his friend's sang for him, wtf? it's been pretty funny too, the movie :)
note: i seriously don't have anythign else to watch, but this aint too bad up till now!!
ok...now im gonna watch the movie...
ciao... (wait for updates)
now,
im at this point in the movie:- 0:50:48
what the FUCK is wrong with this movie?? couldn't the script writers come up with a better reason for a fight? god!!!
now,
im at this point in the movie:- 0:59:00
though the time doesn't matter, fuck this girl is HOT/cute in a way very different from all these typical movie stars/models :-P very good casting!! very believable looking actors :)
now,
im at this point in the movie:- 1:01:11
in the squash court,fakest laugh, EVER!!
watching the credits now...
it was, a pretty entertaining movie, not too bad to pass the night away :) and i kinda liked the title track...bleh...
although it was kinda predictable around the end...the plot was stupid too now that i think of it...hmmmm...whatever...
their chemistry is kinda weird, these two...hehe
i feel like such an idiot now to have dedicated a whole blog post to this movie....
also one more thing, i can't beleive they were able to conjure up only 7,000 for him!! after this movie released, i sold my old 40 gb monochrome iPod for 8,000 to a guy, heehee...so these people in the movie are pretty pathetic salesmen :)
also in this frame, she looks like rachel bilson!!:-
Saturday, April 26, 2008
why facebook is depressing....
this is from some weird application...
Note:- a few days ago the count for people who said 'yes' was 0, the '1' kinda kills the humor now...bleh...and the effect...agh!!
Thursday, April 10, 2008
box car racer (cat like thief):-
Cat like thief she stole air from my lungs
Leave me standing on this lonely grave
I dug it out in case she turns away
angels and airwaves (the adventure):-
Any type of love it will be shown
Like every single tree reach for the sky
If you`re gonna to fall
I'll let you know
That I will pick you up
Like you for I
blink 182 (going away to college):-
Why does it feel the same
To fall in love or break it off
And if young love is just a game
Then I must have missed the kick off
Dont depend on me to ever follow through on anything
But Id go through hell for you and
I havent been this scared in a long time
And Im so unprepared so heres your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This worlds an ugly place
But youre so beautiful to me
plus 44 (little death):-
Please, sleep my darling, sleep
Your car crash in slow motion
Won't upset the pace on distant stars
And one by one the years of our lives
Stumble as the moments pass
So please hold on, so please hold on
So fall asleep with the windows open
Come to me with the worst you've said and done
You'll close your eyes and see me
A little death makes life more meaningful
I stand no chance at all
just excerpts from the various bands formed here and there by mark tom and travis...
i don't know what anyone would make of the last one, 'little death', look at these for an insight and believe what you want:-
http://www.songmeanings.net/lyric.php?lid=3530822107858627535
http://www.songmeanings.net/lyric.php?lid=3530822107858634590
i won't say all of these are my favorite lyrics from all their songs...they're just the ones that struck me in this moment :)
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Now playing: Sugar Ray - Someday
via FoxyTunes
Cat like thief she stole air from my lungs
Leave me standing on this lonely grave
I dug it out in case she turns away
angels and airwaves (the adventure):-
Any type of love it will be shown
Like every single tree reach for the sky
If you`re gonna to fall
I'll let you know
That I will pick you up
Like you for I
blink 182 (going away to college):-
Why does it feel the same
To fall in love or break it off
And if young love is just a game
Then I must have missed the kick off
Dont depend on me to ever follow through on anything
But Id go through hell for you and
I havent been this scared in a long time
And Im so unprepared so heres your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This worlds an ugly place
But youre so beautiful to me
plus 44 (little death):-
Please, sleep my darling, sleep
Your car crash in slow motion
Won't upset the pace on distant stars
And one by one the years of our lives
Stumble as the moments pass
So please hold on, so please hold on
So fall asleep with the windows open
Come to me with the worst you've said and done
You'll close your eyes and see me
A little death makes life more meaningful
I stand no chance at all
just excerpts from the various bands formed here and there by mark tom and travis...
i don't know what anyone would make of the last one, 'little death', look at these for an insight and believe what you want:-
http://www.songmeanings.net/lyric.php?lid=3530822107858627535
http://www.songmeanings.net/lyric.php?lid=3530822107858634590
i won't say all of these are my favorite lyrics from all their songs...they're just the ones that struck me in this moment :)
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Now playing: Sugar Ray - Someday
via FoxyTunes
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
im just a happy kid, stuck with the heart of a sad punk...
ironically, one of the most depressing songs I've heard is 'Happy kid' by 'nada surf'...
again, when i decided to write a new blog post, i thought of writing about all the movies i recently saw (sleepless in Seattle, juno etc) and the music i heard (juno soundtrack, this song by never ending white lights) and again i thought, enh...who wants to go through all that effort, now it just seems like effort, earlier i just wanted to get my opinion on every damn thing out to the world...
i've noticed that i HATE people singing along to music instinctively, (most people, some people, i like when they sing alon :) ) although i do it with anything I've heard...for example, i make it a point to not play songs by hinder etc when there a lot of people around (specially women, ugh, they all seem to be crazy about hinder and nickleback) because if i do...everyone starts singing along!! so i try to play songs which are likeable, but which nobody has heard....
yeah i think that's all that my mind could come up with today...
oh yeah i was listening to this song in which a line goes:-
"I spend more time in front of mirrors
Than any gent should"
and this reminded me of all the people at my gym, who (this they do as if there's no one in the room) look at themselves in the large mirror/wall at different angles, making different poses (in their underwear) even different expressions!! now, generally, all of us look at ourselves in the mirror...but i, disgusted my the sheer vanity of all this gym shit, don't feel like looking at myself in the mirror anymore!! bleh...it's like 'eeyuch'...why!!??
ok im done.
oh and i also realized that nine inch nails are the wisest band out there, listen to 'march of the pigs' and 'starfuckers inc.' to get a drift of what i mean...
again, when i decided to write a new blog post, i thought of writing about all the movies i recently saw (sleepless in Seattle, juno etc) and the music i heard (juno soundtrack, this song by never ending white lights) and again i thought, enh...who wants to go through all that effort, now it just seems like effort, earlier i just wanted to get my opinion on every damn thing out to the world...
i've noticed that i HATE people singing along to music instinctively, (most people, some people, i like when they sing alon :) ) although i do it with anything I've heard...for example, i make it a point to not play songs by hinder etc when there a lot of people around (specially women, ugh, they all seem to be crazy about hinder and nickleback) because if i do...everyone starts singing along!! so i try to play songs which are likeable, but which nobody has heard....
yeah i think that's all that my mind could come up with today...
oh yeah i was listening to this song in which a line goes:-
"I spend more time in front of mirrors
Than any gent should"
and this reminded me of all the people at my gym, who (this they do as if there's no one in the room) look at themselves in the large mirror/wall at different angles, making different poses (in their underwear) even different expressions!! now, generally, all of us look at ourselves in the mirror...but i, disgusted my the sheer vanity of all this gym shit, don't feel like looking at myself in the mirror anymore!! bleh...it's like 'eeyuch'...why!!??
ok im done.
oh and i also realized that nine inch nails are the wisest band out there, listen to 'march of the pigs' and 'starfuckers inc.' to get a drift of what i mean...
Sunday, February 03, 2008
i feel so fucking loved....shit.
"oh yes im fine, everything's just wonderful, im having the time of my life"
for the not very bright...yes, that is sarcasm.
it's like i have permanent blogger's block, earlier if anything out of the ordinary (or even very ordinary) happened in my life, id write about it...at a time i'd only write about all the unfair things in life...try to make my writing interesting, in this one..im just trying to bloody make the content look different from my previous posts, to avoid myself from getting bored of it...bah.
now things i could talk about:-
-the flooding of my apartment
-the awesome split uplugged concert i attended, and how different it was (i would put the word 'different' in quotes, but it'd look like i was disrespecting split, and i don't wanna do that :) )
-mood indigo, and the ride to bombay, also the mahabaleshwar ride...
-new friends here and there
-anleey's cat giving birth to dead babies and eating them
now, why i wouldn't write about the above things:-
what the fuck do you (the reader) care about he flooding of my apartment? happens to many people...someone leaves a tap on...shit happens...bollocks. the concert now, i've written about so many concerts in the past, i don't really care if anyone else enjoys my view of the music or not, i don't wanna waste my time putting a visual image of a concert in the readers mind, go get your tickets, and attend it yourself...i enjoyed it, so could've you...again, shit happens. now the ride, once again, way too many rides in history, you wanna feel what i felt? take your bike and ride along...me telling you 'how fast i went on those awesome roads' doesn't interest me...and is useless for you too...you'll never understand it until you do it...
now the 'new friends', the definition of a friend nowadays doesn't go beyond having somebody's phone number....so i'd say, realistically, that i have 'potential new friends', what would i write about them? bloody assumptions?
now the cat...just check out these awesome pictures:-
for the not very bright...yes, that is sarcasm.
it's like i have permanent blogger's block, earlier if anything out of the ordinary (or even very ordinary) happened in my life, id write about it...at a time i'd only write about all the unfair things in life...try to make my writing interesting, in this one..im just trying to bloody make the content look different from my previous posts, to avoid myself from getting bored of it...bah.
now things i could talk about:-
-the flooding of my apartment
-the awesome split uplugged concert i attended, and how different it was (i would put the word 'different' in quotes, but it'd look like i was disrespecting split, and i don't wanna do that :) )
-mood indigo, and the ride to bombay, also the mahabaleshwar ride...
-new friends here and there
-anleey's cat giving birth to dead babies and eating them
now, why i wouldn't write about the above things:-
what the fuck do you (the reader) care about he flooding of my apartment? happens to many people...someone leaves a tap on...shit happens...bollocks. the concert now, i've written about so many concerts in the past, i don't really care if anyone else enjoys my view of the music or not, i don't wanna waste my time putting a visual image of a concert in the readers mind, go get your tickets, and attend it yourself...i enjoyed it, so could've you...again, shit happens. now the ride, once again, way too many rides in history, you wanna feel what i felt? take your bike and ride along...me telling you 'how fast i went on those awesome roads' doesn't interest me...and is useless for you too...you'll never understand it until you do it...
now the 'new friends', the definition of a friend nowadays doesn't go beyond having somebody's phone number....so i'd say, realistically, that i have 'potential new friends', what would i write about them? bloody assumptions?
now the cat...just check out these awesome pictures:-
Thursday, November 08, 2007
the average donkey looks like chad micheal murray
i came across this phenomenon recently...look at these two pictures:-
exhibit A. - Donkey:-
and...
exhibit B. - Chad:-
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now look at their eyes...and you'll see what I'm talking about!!!
exhibit A. - Donkey:-
and...
exhibit B. - Chad:-
now look at their eyes...and you'll see what I'm talking about!!!
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
usb 3.0 emotion speed transfer review
ok, about me at the moment:-
-in Gwalior
-thus, bored to the point of pulling my nails out with pliers just to entertain myself
let's get on with my strange views again,
now, it so happens that when ya like someone, you think "if only she/he....(actually let's use 'she', i don't like obliques)....knew how much i like her"
how does that work? and why should it work? I'd think that if she knew exactly how much she liked me, and this information was transferred from my brain to hers through a high bandwidth cable, with no loss in translation...where there have to be no words woven to get the emotions across...she'd like me back, coz now she'd know exactly the extent of my interest in her...and should that make make me 'irresistible' and 'un-rejectable'? think of it with a perverse empathy...if some strange girl who i don't give two shits about and am not the least bit interested in comes and 'opens her heart' to me and lets me know how she adores me (please, this is a hypothesis, so try to imagine :-P) and how she can't sleep thinking about me...and stalks me on facebook...and collects pictures of me from people's phones...and other creepy things...would all this actually make me stop thinking about other people and fixate me on her? absolutely not!! I'd probably get creeped out and somehow reject her and eventually brag to my friends about 'how this random chick was crazy about me' (that's how the sick male mind actually works) i dunno what would the girl's position be, probably embarrassed...whatever. ('whatever' is all i can come up with when trying to think of the girl's position, proving that my theory about 'hardwire feelings transfer' wouldn't work, sometimes words do come close to the hypothetical transfer)
so...should a person keep hoping that someday the girl "will understand how i feel"???
how much ever you like a person you still...can't...change...their...mind.
let's keep hanging on for some lame miracles though i guess :-P
Optimism!!!
btw i was listening to this song 'illegal' by shakira, now, is the line "you said you would love me until you die, and as far as i know you're still alive" just sappy, or is it also mildly 'humorously sarcastic' :-P ? *snicker snicker* heehee
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Now playing: Radiohead - Paranoid Android
via FoxyTunes
-in Gwalior
-thus, bored to the point of pulling my nails out with pliers just to entertain myself
let's get on with my strange views again,
now, it so happens that when ya like someone, you think "if only she/he....(actually let's use 'she', i don't like obliques)....knew how much i like her"
how does that work? and why should it work? I'd think that if she knew exactly how much she liked me, and this information was transferred from my brain to hers through a high bandwidth cable, with no loss in translation...where there have to be no words woven to get the emotions across...she'd like me back, coz now she'd know exactly the extent of my interest in her...and should that make make me 'irresistible' and 'un-rejectable'? think of it with a perverse empathy...if some strange girl who i don't give two shits about and am not the least bit interested in comes and 'opens her heart' to me and lets me know how she adores me (please, this is a hypothesis, so try to imagine :-P) and how she can't sleep thinking about me...and stalks me on facebook...and collects pictures of me from people's phones...and other creepy things...would all this actually make me stop thinking about other people and fixate me on her? absolutely not!! I'd probably get creeped out and somehow reject her and eventually brag to my friends about 'how this random chick was crazy about me' (that's how the sick male mind actually works) i dunno what would the girl's position be, probably embarrassed...whatever. ('whatever' is all i can come up with when trying to think of the girl's position, proving that my theory about 'hardwire feelings transfer' wouldn't work, sometimes words do come close to the hypothetical transfer)
so...should a person keep hoping that someday the girl "will understand how i feel"???
how much ever you like a person you still...can't...change...their...mind.
let's keep hanging on for some lame miracles though i guess :-P
Optimism!!!
btw i was listening to this song 'illegal' by shakira, now, is the line "you said you would love me until you die, and as far as i know you're still alive" just sappy, or is it also mildly 'humorously sarcastic' :-P ? *snicker snicker* heehee
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Now playing: Radiohead - Paranoid Android
via FoxyTunes
Thursday, October 18, 2007
we are all made of opinions (why did moby think it was 'stars'??)
I'm semi-aimless and happy (kinda) today :) seen some changes in people,good changes, not too much to my advantage but still :) besides that I've made some more sucky 'vicious circle' type observations....
I've noticed that during exam time, some mutual 'study groups' are always formed, some by begging a person better at a subject, and some just out of of mutual understanding...and during this course...there is so much lying and conniving going on it's mind boggling, one group would lie to an individual or individuals about their whereabouts and study timings so that the individual(s) do not come and interrupt their studies by 'showing up' and disturbing them.....so many of us 'individuals' are left out roaming like idiots because of our reputation...i mean, it would be fine if we were just honest with each other, but that doesn't really happen, and would be kind of awkward if it did, not many people can pull of such coldness, hehe...and don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming anyone, because sometimes I'm part of the..er..'group' too ;-) so it is indeed, a vicious circle...so you see, we're all part of the 'world' as they say, and it's ways penetrate the best of us...we're usually not left any choice, gotta do this for the greater good...
now, the other thing, i had been showering at a friend's place because the 'bath system' at my tiny temporary disgusting apartment sucks, cold water, no 'shower' and a cramped environment...and that guy let me, he did express some dislike when he thought our boxers got mixed up (they didn't,it was a funny misunderstanding) and even more when i slipped and fell on his sink, breaking it in the process (not even his, his roommate's) so the next time i showed u at his place (by now i had taken it for granted that he 'doesn't mind') he told me pretty diplomatically that it was 'enough' and stuff and he doesn't want me to take bath there anymore...so, i was kind a disappointed but not upset, coz it was ok, it wasn't exactly a necessity, i was just doing it coz i could...so, it was good that said friend gathered up the balls to tell me not to :) saying 'no' is an important skill...i don't exactly look like a person people want to deny stuff (i really don't mind though, like another friend almost very correctly said, i hardly get upset!!)people are always trying to be diplomatic, and this too is another vicious circle and again i sound like a hypocrite because even i cannot say no to people...life would be much easier if i could, I'm just trying to survive in this world man, cut me some slack (everybody deserves to be cut some slack, but we all suck at that too) im not a saint, but neither is anybody else...there are so many needs of the world you have to fulfill, you have to be helpful, borderline empathic (they all expect you to show oodles of empathy, but they show a bare minimum of it themselves) and 'normal' enough for the world to accept you, if i could, i would shun all 'extra' obligations and friends, sit at home (my nice new 'private' home, not the one with the roommates)...eat..sleep...come only for classes....and communicate only via facebook or something...but that's how 'social life' takes you away from this awkward stunted vision...you want to come around after college, listen to bullshit spoken by people...gotta see certain people...need the company of some people you like and people you have become too used to, indulge in certain activities that are entertaining (movies, gaming)...you gotta somehow have good clothes and also figure out a way to wear them well so that the world doesn't call you an 'uncivilized freak', some people are able to carry of that look, me too sometimes, but it's nice to dress slightly attractively sometimes :) makes ya feel nice...why? because you know it's raising people's opinion of you, we're all made of other people's opinions at the end of the day.....
random thought: do you need, all that companionship that you're all so proud to have?? "ooh i have so many friends, they love me so much" are you really proud of all our friends?? or are most of them there just to passively use you while you're under the impression of 'being cared for'...?? ?
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Now playing: Yeah yeah yeahs - They don't love you like I love you
via FoxyTunes
I've noticed that during exam time, some mutual 'study groups' are always formed, some by begging a person better at a subject, and some just out of of mutual understanding...and during this course...there is so much lying and conniving going on it's mind boggling, one group would lie to an individual or individuals about their whereabouts and study timings so that the individual(s) do not come and interrupt their studies by 'showing up' and disturbing them.....so many of us 'individuals' are left out roaming like idiots because of our reputation...i mean, it would be fine if we were just honest with each other, but that doesn't really happen, and would be kind of awkward if it did, not many people can pull of such coldness, hehe...and don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming anyone, because sometimes I'm part of the..er..'group' too ;-) so it is indeed, a vicious circle...so you see, we're all part of the 'world' as they say, and it's ways penetrate the best of us...we're usually not left any choice, gotta do this for the greater good...
now, the other thing, i had been showering at a friend's place because the 'bath system' at my tiny temporary disgusting apartment sucks, cold water, no 'shower' and a cramped environment...and that guy let me, he did express some dislike when he thought our boxers got mixed up (they didn't,it was a funny misunderstanding) and even more when i slipped and fell on his sink, breaking it in the process (not even his, his roommate's) so the next time i showed u at his place (by now i had taken it for granted that he 'doesn't mind') he told me pretty diplomatically that it was 'enough' and stuff and he doesn't want me to take bath there anymore...so, i was kind a disappointed but not upset, coz it was ok, it wasn't exactly a necessity, i was just doing it coz i could...so, it was good that said friend gathered up the balls to tell me not to :) saying 'no' is an important skill...i don't exactly look like a person people want to deny stuff (i really don't mind though, like another friend almost very correctly said, i hardly get upset!!)people are always trying to be diplomatic, and this too is another vicious circle and again i sound like a hypocrite because even i cannot say no to people...life would be much easier if i could, I'm just trying to survive in this world man, cut me some slack (everybody deserves to be cut some slack, but we all suck at that too) im not a saint, but neither is anybody else...there are so many needs of the world you have to fulfill, you have to be helpful, borderline empathic (they all expect you to show oodles of empathy, but they show a bare minimum of it themselves) and 'normal' enough for the world to accept you, if i could, i would shun all 'extra' obligations and friends, sit at home (my nice new 'private' home, not the one with the roommates)...eat..sleep...come only for classes....and communicate only via facebook or something...but that's how 'social life' takes you away from this awkward stunted vision...you want to come around after college, listen to bullshit spoken by people...gotta see certain people...need the company of some people you like and people you have become too used to, indulge in certain activities that are entertaining (movies, gaming)...you gotta somehow have good clothes and also figure out a way to wear them well so that the world doesn't call you an 'uncivilized freak', some people are able to carry of that look, me too sometimes, but it's nice to dress slightly attractively sometimes :) makes ya feel nice...why? because you know it's raising people's opinion of you, we're all made of other people's opinions at the end of the day.....
random thought: do you need, all that companionship that you're all so proud to have?? "ooh i have so many friends, they love me so much" are you really proud of all our friends?? or are most of them there just to passively use you while you're under the impression of 'being cared for'...?? ?
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007
deep and meaningless
exam time could easily be the most boring ever...usually you give someone a call and go for dinner or meet up for coffee or something (this sounds terribly similar to a casual date with someone of the opposite sex but sadly, it isn't, I'm referring to my male friends).
now during 'exam time', every minute spent outside having even the quintessential 'dinner' seems full of some kind of guilt...not heavy guilt, just a feeling of "fuck, we should be back home studying"
it's not like I'm so social a person that i can't live without going out with my friends and eating, but it's become part of my routine and not exactly avoidable (I'm not heavily inclined to avoid my friends either)
before i switch to my "hmmm, what should i write today?" mode...I'd like to say something about my last post....in no way was i undermining the obvious 'talent' of the people who can just somehow make every phrase in a set of phrases rhyme with the one above... (how in the name of the devil does one do that?)
writing angry and dark lyrics seems like a great way to 'let stuff out', now that, is something everyone is always trying to do even more than the 'romantic' ones...it's usually something on the lines of 'hate', 'being ignored' and 'suffering', well...not everyone is in love, so somebody has to write about these too, which some feel more than others, and more than other emotions...
ok, now, i don't have much to write about...had some thoughts, they've kinda managed to sip my mind, Grrrr.....
i just realized that facebook can be really really addictive...the best place to stalk someone, hehe...i dunno why they generalize 'stalkers', everyone, is always, stalking somebody or the other...there is always someone you wanna know more about...and will do all the simple simple un-extreme things you can anonymously do..to do just that!! snooping/stalking is a pretty fun activity, everyone does it, we're all a bit curious and a bit perverted...and the internet facilitates it anyways...it's a boring life, gotta have some adventure and stupid pointless entertaining fun around here ;) i don't see anybody with the 'perfect life' here...nobody who you ca be jealous of, we're all losers at different levels..and it's all cool this way :) ah, beautiful beautiful cruel merciless world...what would we do without the little quirks in all you humans....
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Now playing: Rooster - You're So Right For Me
via FoxyTunes
random thought: you realize it's so hard to find someone you can completely completely trust?? and that it actually is so much better this way????
now during 'exam time', every minute spent outside having even the quintessential 'dinner' seems full of some kind of guilt...not heavy guilt, just a feeling of "fuck, we should be back home studying"
it's not like I'm so social a person that i can't live without going out with my friends and eating, but it's become part of my routine and not exactly avoidable (I'm not heavily inclined to avoid my friends either)
before i switch to my "hmmm, what should i write today?" mode...I'd like to say something about my last post....in no way was i undermining the obvious 'talent' of the people who can just somehow make every phrase in a set of phrases rhyme with the one above... (how in the name of the devil does one do that?)
writing angry and dark lyrics seems like a great way to 'let stuff out', now that, is something everyone is always trying to do even more than the 'romantic' ones...it's usually something on the lines of 'hate', 'being ignored' and 'suffering', well...not everyone is in love, so somebody has to write about these too, which some feel more than others, and more than other emotions...
ok, now, i don't have much to write about...had some thoughts, they've kinda managed to sip my mind, Grrrr.....
i just realized that facebook can be really really addictive...the best place to stalk someone, hehe...i dunno why they generalize 'stalkers', everyone, is always, stalking somebody or the other...there is always someone you wanna know more about...and will do all the simple simple un-extreme things you can anonymously do..to do just that!! snooping/stalking is a pretty fun activity, everyone does it, we're all a bit curious and a bit perverted...and the internet facilitates it anyways...it's a boring life, gotta have some adventure and stupid pointless entertaining fun around here ;) i don't see anybody with the 'perfect life' here...nobody who you ca be jealous of, we're all losers at different levels..and it's all cool this way :) ah, beautiful beautiful cruel merciless world...what would we do without the little quirks in all you humans....
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Now playing: Rooster - You're So Right For Me
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random thought: you realize it's so hard to find someone you can completely completely trust?? and that it actually is so much better this way????
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
"aren't we all great writers?"
"aren't we all great writers?" this was my msn nick sometime ago (maybe still is,will have to check)
when i look at song lyrics, or poems, or read one of these strange books with a million metaphors being used for explaining something as simple as "it was a monsoon day, and (duh) it was raining in so and so village" i feel intimidated...i mean, not anymore...ok let's change the topic.
song lyrics and poems (let's stick to these) are usually so well written, the romantic words (i guess it's understood by now that im not talking about death metal lyrics here) the splattering of feelings across the world's eyes...and it seems like this display of talent, but it's much more than that, the person writing these lyrics, is totally opening up his/her heart for all to see, not everyone can do that...maybe i have feelings inside me more intense than those of the song im listening to, but can i build-up the courage to put them out to the world? isn't every boy of my age trying to build up a strong,manly image for the world to see?? the writers and the poets are considered 'sensitive men'. i think they're the strong ones...all us others don't have the balls to let the world know the degree of our feelings, that we care, about other things than all things sexual....everything is inherently cheesy if it involves the 'L' word (referring to 'Love' here) note: this discussion isn't applicable only to the boys, but people in general...
for people who know me, i know i know i sound like a hypocrite because i find almost everything cheesy, but cmon, cut me some slack here....somethings are way too cheesy to be 'romantic' from any angle except the bollywood one!!
recently I've come across some words written by a couple of friends, something scribbled at the back of a notebook....something floating around as a note on facebook...something blogged away at an unknown link....i feel for these people. the secret writer's misery is even worse than the song lyrics writer...somethings can't be put in words, even more impossible is to put these things in rhymes, but for those who manage it and can let someone read it. hats off...you got balls. i feel intensely, but the last thing i would want to do is complicate my life by putting my feelings 'out there', this blog might be a nice place to let stuff out..but not everything :) some words are best left unspoken....
if i ever triad to write a song, poem or something...I'd probably not get a word out out of my fear of mockery...it's a sad, sad world. you can't care 'zero' about it. people suck, gotta deal with it...
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Now playing: The Perishers - Weekends
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when i look at song lyrics, or poems, or read one of these strange books with a million metaphors being used for explaining something as simple as "it was a monsoon day, and (duh) it was raining in so and so village" i feel intimidated...i mean, not anymore...ok let's change the topic.
song lyrics and poems (let's stick to these) are usually so well written, the romantic words (i guess it's understood by now that im not talking about death metal lyrics here) the splattering of feelings across the world's eyes...and it seems like this display of talent, but it's much more than that, the person writing these lyrics, is totally opening up his/her heart for all to see, not everyone can do that...maybe i have feelings inside me more intense than those of the song im listening to, but can i build-up the courage to put them out to the world? isn't every boy of my age trying to build up a strong,manly image for the world to see?? the writers and the poets are considered 'sensitive men'. i think they're the strong ones...all us others don't have the balls to let the world know the degree of our feelings, that we care, about other things than all things sexual....everything is inherently cheesy if it involves the 'L' word (referring to 'Love' here) note: this discussion isn't applicable only to the boys, but people in general...
for people who know me, i know i know i sound like a hypocrite because i find almost everything cheesy, but cmon, cut me some slack here....somethings are way too cheesy to be 'romantic' from any angle except the bollywood one!!
recently I've come across some words written by a couple of friends, something scribbled at the back of a notebook....something floating around as a note on facebook...something blogged away at an unknown link....i feel for these people. the secret writer's misery is even worse than the song lyrics writer...somethings can't be put in words, even more impossible is to put these things in rhymes, but for those who manage it and can let someone read it. hats off...you got balls. i feel intensely, but the last thing i would want to do is complicate my life by putting my feelings 'out there', this blog might be a nice place to let stuff out..but not everything :) some words are best left unspoken....
if i ever triad to write a song, poem or something...I'd probably not get a word out out of my fear of mockery...it's a sad, sad world. you can't care 'zero' about it. people suck, gotta deal with it...
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Now playing: The Perishers - Weekends
via FoxyTunes
Saturday, October 13, 2007
not much to say, got much to do......
often we get a sort of 'negative vibe' from people and wonder- "what's wrong, did i do something that he/she doesn't like but isn't telling me? why don't these assholes come out with it huh? why be cowards and hide their true opinion of me? why doesn't he/she rise up to the challenge, confront me and tell me what he/she thinks of me??"
now, have you ever stopped and wondered, would you ever do the same?? would you just go confront your close friends and tell them that they're annoying and wish did not exist at times? the answer is no... (in most cases, unless you're feeling mean,hehe, but jokes apart...) we have learned to live with all our friends' flaws and are cool with it, can't expect my friend to be like, not an asshole at all, at times everyone's allowed to be a prick...it's entertaining :)and keeps the spontaneity in the group...some people who are way too perfect are disliked too...in the "what did this person learn in his earlier years?? how can he/she be/act so naive??" stuff like that....sometimes you learn to adore a person's flaws..but we're not gonna discuss that..er...also to be clear, this isn't exactly a discussion forum,just a blog :)
in other news, me and two of my non-smoking friend(s) were feeling bored and making statements like "man i wish we guys had something for pure timepass like these smokers, something non addictive, not harmful for health,and enjoyable" and so we set out to try these ultra low tobacco/nicotine (apparently flavored?) cigarettes called gudang garam now these were supposed to taste/feel like cloves and such, but it was such a horrible experience!! why do people smoke anything??i hate the feeling of smoke on me...my hands smelled weird after trying it....lame...stale smell...i would never be able to make out with someone who smelled like smoke (one of my friends shares this opinion of mine)!!!
so it was a bad experience, all we did was crib about cigarettes and smokers the rest of the night....
in even more recent news, me and three of my friends, on two bikes went to this beautiful amazing heavenly place in some hills some kilometers behind his house...and had an awesome time there :) there we indulged in some cool exhilarating off-roading 'exercises' on our bikes, checked out some fun obstacle course things,we even followed a stream to reach a hidden-ish waterfall, had a great time overall...will be going there with more people again some time later...
nothing much going on besides all this....going on....living in a world with flaws like it has taught us to...it's all pretty uphill. bah!!! i need to see a goodmovie, 'next' sucked, bad animation,sucky story,dumb acting....
'the brave one' is the only good movie I've seen this month....thoroughly impressed.
'bhool bhulaiya' had it's humorous moments, but otherwise was a drag
'feast of love' was entertaining,but pretty predictable....i liked it anyways :)
I've been pretty happy happy this month, there is this song called 'into yesterday' by 'sugar ray' that's so uplifting....really nice. have been going on more of my late night musical walks, and have been really enjoying them too. also have had some temper losses during the month, but anyways, my temper is very short lived like always, so i can barely remember anything to write about these..'angry' events....
im slowly finishing off long overdue chores from my to-do list, preparing to finally shift out of this hell-hole and into my new house...which im gonna so enjoy living in, ah....even thinking about it makes me crave that life, damn....
random thought:-
it's hard to move on in life when the feelings at the 'back of your head' are like a ten tonne anchor telling you "yeah right, go ahead, you couldn't win here, what you gonna do elsewhere?" in these situations is it still the 'back' of your head?? or a dominating mutated obsessive overall brain disorder egging you to take drastic measures??
now, have you ever stopped and wondered, would you ever do the same?? would you just go confront your close friends and tell them that they're annoying and wish did not exist at times? the answer is no... (in most cases, unless you're feeling mean,hehe, but jokes apart...) we have learned to live with all our friends' flaws and are cool with it, can't expect my friend to be like, not an asshole at all, at times everyone's allowed to be a prick...it's entertaining :)and keeps the spontaneity in the group...some people who are way too perfect are disliked too...in the "what did this person learn in his earlier years?? how can he/she be/act so naive??" stuff like that....sometimes you learn to adore a person's flaws..but we're not gonna discuss that..er...also to be clear, this isn't exactly a discussion forum,just a blog :)
in other news, me and two of my non-smoking friend(s) were feeling bored and making statements like "man i wish we guys had something for pure timepass like these smokers, something non addictive, not harmful for health,and enjoyable" and so we set out to try these ultra low tobacco/nicotine (apparently flavored?) cigarettes called gudang garam now these were supposed to taste/feel like cloves and such, but it was such a horrible experience!! why do people smoke anything??i hate the feeling of smoke on me...my hands smelled weird after trying it....lame...stale smell...i would never be able to make out with someone who smelled like smoke (one of my friends shares this opinion of mine)!!!
so it was a bad experience, all we did was crib about cigarettes and smokers the rest of the night....
in even more recent news, me and three of my friends, on two bikes went to this beautiful amazing heavenly place in some hills some kilometers behind his house...and had an awesome time there :) there we indulged in some cool exhilarating off-roading 'exercises' on our bikes, checked out some fun obstacle course things,we even followed a stream to reach a hidden-ish waterfall, had a great time overall...will be going there with more people again some time later...
nothing much going on besides all this....going on....living in a world with flaws like it has taught us to...it's all pretty uphill. bah!!! i need to see a goodmovie, 'next' sucked, bad animation,sucky story,dumb acting....
'the brave one' is the only good movie I've seen this month....thoroughly impressed.
'bhool bhulaiya' had it's humorous moments, but otherwise was a drag
'feast of love' was entertaining,but pretty predictable....i liked it anyways :)
I've been pretty happy happy this month, there is this song called 'into yesterday' by 'sugar ray' that's so uplifting....really nice. have been going on more of my late night musical walks, and have been really enjoying them too. also have had some temper losses during the month, but anyways, my temper is very short lived like always, so i can barely remember anything to write about these..'angry' events....
im slowly finishing off long overdue chores from my to-do list, preparing to finally shift out of this hell-hole and into my new house...which im gonna so enjoy living in, ah....even thinking about it makes me crave that life, damn....
random thought:-
it's hard to move on in life when the feelings at the 'back of your head' are like a ten tonne anchor telling you "yeah right, go ahead, you couldn't win here, what you gonna do elsewhere?" in these situations is it still the 'back' of your head?? or a dominating mutated obsessive overall brain disorder egging you to take drastic measures??
Sunday, September 16, 2007
The last few days have been quite a lot of fun, went for a great concert. Had a lot of fun. Learned some lessons. I'm living with anleey and Sam (sam sundar, our senior) in a tiny apartment (hah! Apartment) an d it sucks :( I mean, I like friends coming over and stuff, but what happened to my old life? In my aundh house….I had alone time, privacy, and a kinda homely environment….I'm not very much into the 'decorating the home' thing but I miss my home nevertheless :(
most probably I'll be shifting into my new apartment in October, I pray it doesn't get delayed.
I severely miss my home and a good night's sleep, and good meals. I feel like wild animal taken out of his natural habitat for too long!! There are way too many social activities I'm indulging in, enjoyable, but not very fulfilling, they're very (BLANK) it's like I'm stuck in the same routine whatever I do, a loop. College-eat-game-sleep-eat-gym-eat-sleep ARRGH!!! Actually I think the gym is the only good thing about the routine, and yeah college too, hehe. I used to attend all classes In the first semester around. I'm sounding very pathetic right now and totally contradicting my apparently 'adventurous' and 'always up for anything' attitude but I couldn't be more honest. My independence is gone (except when I go on solitary trips to other cities) also my bike is always with someone else, I seem to have a problem saying no to people, I mean I want to help, and don't mind sacrificing my use of the bike, but not all the time!!! And why me?
Where is my alone time? Where are my singular self-affecting impulsive decisions? And the activities I used to indulge in that affected only me? Which I only wrote about in this blog :( I think my impulsive decisions now come only from a subconscious need for deviation from the routine…but I don't exactly hate routines..hmmm…my routine when I lived alone was sadder, but I think I was happier :( when with roommates, I can't listen to those gay-ass songs I used to listen to all the time when I was living alone :-)
And I also want these poor cats to be treated and fed better…which only I can provide in my new house…I think. I want to sit in my balcony, sipping iced tea, reading a book(which I used to do frequently when I lived alone, the reading, and the tea, both) staring at the weird view (which is going to be only a building being constructed across the compound around the time I shift in, but whatever) and get away from the position of being so close to college, and things…and people….I like, and indulge(or try my best to) in way too much.
Life is pretty much stuck, not good stuck, bad stuck, I don't care, but I worry. I want to just go ahead and do certain things that I want to do…but can't. it is unexplainable. Voids and cycles are better than dead ends. But dead ends have a sweet finality to them. Which you can move on from…
I just got a new phone btw (now coming back to the 'this blog is about a stupid teenagers rants about overly usual stuff' - mode) it's pretty nice…a nokia 5500…
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Now playing: Bullet for My Valentine - All These Things I Hate
via FoxyTunes
most probably I'll be shifting into my new apartment in October, I pray it doesn't get delayed.
I severely miss my home and a good night's sleep, and good meals. I feel like wild animal taken out of his natural habitat for too long!! There are way too many social activities I'm indulging in, enjoyable, but not very fulfilling, they're very (BLANK) it's like I'm stuck in the same routine whatever I do, a loop. College-eat-game-sleep-eat-gym-eat-sleep ARRGH!!! Actually I think the gym is the only good thing about the routine, and yeah college too, hehe. I used to attend all classes In the first semester around. I'm sounding very pathetic right now and totally contradicting my apparently 'adventurous' and 'always up for anything' attitude but I couldn't be more honest. My independence is gone (except when I go on solitary trips to other cities) also my bike is always with someone else, I seem to have a problem saying no to people, I mean I want to help, and don't mind sacrificing my use of the bike, but not all the time!!! And why me?
Where is my alone time? Where are my singular self-affecting impulsive decisions? And the activities I used to indulge in that affected only me? Which I only wrote about in this blog :( I think my impulsive decisions now come only from a subconscious need for deviation from the routine…but I don't exactly hate routines..hmmm…my routine when I lived alone was sadder, but I think I was happier :( when with roommates, I can't listen to those gay-ass songs I used to listen to all the time when I was living alone :-)
And I also want these poor cats to be treated and fed better…which only I can provide in my new house…I think. I want to sit in my balcony, sipping iced tea, reading a book(which I used to do frequently when I lived alone, the reading, and the tea, both) staring at the weird view (which is going to be only a building being constructed across the compound around the time I shift in, but whatever) and get away from the position of being so close to college, and things…and people….I like, and indulge(or try my best to) in way too much.
Life is pretty much stuck, not good stuck, bad stuck, I don't care, but I worry. I want to just go ahead and do certain things that I want to do…but can't. it is unexplainable. Voids and cycles are better than dead ends. But dead ends have a sweet finality to them. Which you can move on from…
I just got a new phone btw (now coming back to the 'this blog is about a stupid teenagers rants about overly usual stuff' - mode) it's pretty nice…a nokia 5500…
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Now playing: Bullet for My Valentine - All These Things I Hate
via FoxyTunes
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