not much to say, got much to do......

often we get a sort of 'negative vibe' from people and wonder- "what's wrong, did i do something that he/she doesn't like but isn't telling me? why don't these assholes come out with it huh? why be cowards and hide their true opinion of me? why doesn't he/she rise up to the challenge, confront me and tell me what he/she thinks of me??"

now, have you ever stopped and wondered, would you ever do the same?? would you just go confront your close friends and tell them that they're annoying and wish did not exist at times? the answer is no... (in most cases, unless you're feeling mean,hehe, but jokes apart...) we have learned to live with all our friends' flaws and are cool with it, can't expect my friend to be like, not an asshole at all, at times everyone's allowed to be a prick...it's entertaining :)and keeps the spontaneity in the group...some people who are way too perfect are disliked too...in the "what did this person learn in his earlier years?? how can he/she be/act so naive??" stuff like that....sometimes you learn to adore a person's flaws..but we're not gonna discuss that..er...also to be clear, this isn't exactly a discussion forum,just a blog :)

in other news, me and two of my non-smoking friend(s) were feeling bored and making statements like "man i wish we guys had something for pure timepass like these smokers, something non addictive, not harmful for health,and enjoyable" and so we set out to try these ultra low tobacco/nicotine (apparently flavored?) cigarettes called gudang garam now these were supposed to taste/feel like cloves and such, but it was such a horrible experience!! why do people smoke anything??i hate the feeling of smoke on me...my hands smelled weird after trying it....lame...stale smell...i would never be able to make out with someone who smelled like smoke (one of my friends shares this opinion of mine)!!!

so it was a bad experience, all we did was crib about cigarettes and smokers the rest of the night....

in even more recent news, me and three of my friends, on two bikes went to this beautiful amazing heavenly place in some hills some kilometers behind his house...and had an awesome time there :) there we indulged in some cool exhilarating off-roading 'exercises' on our bikes, checked out some fun obstacle course things,we even followed a stream to reach a hidden-ish waterfall, had a great time overall...will be going there with more people again some time later...

nothing much going on besides all this....going on....living in a world with flaws like it has taught us to...it's all pretty uphill. bah!!! i need to see a goodmovie, 'next' sucked, bad animation,sucky story,dumb acting....

'the brave one' is the only good movie I've seen this month....thoroughly impressed.

'bhool bhulaiya' had it's humorous moments, but otherwise was a drag

'feast of love' was entertaining,but pretty predictable....i liked it anyways :)

I've been pretty happy happy this month, there is this song called 'into yesterday' by 'sugar ray' that's so uplifting....really nice. have been going on more of my late night musical walks, and have been really enjoying them too. also have had some temper losses during the month, but anyways, my temper is very short lived like always, so i can barely remember anything to write about these..'angry' events....

im slowly finishing off long overdue chores from my to-do list, preparing to finally shift out of this hell-hole and into my new house...which im gonna so enjoy living in, ah....even thinking about it makes me crave that life, damn....

random thought:-
it's hard to move on in life when the feelings at the 'back of your head' are like a ten tonne anchor telling you "yeah right, go ahead, you couldn't win here, what you gonna do elsewhere?" in these situations is it still the 'back' of your head?? or a dominating mutated obsessive overall brain disorder egging you to take drastic measures??