got my new bike, creative tendencies,

okay, i picked up the bike yesterday...

i now own a CBZ xtreme (Finally!!!) and right now, its 2:36 a.m, the last one hour i've been riding my bike to its full capacity on the empty Pune roads, i managed to take it to 110 Kmph on the way home, pretty amazing experience.....lets see if it goes higher (i doubt that) although a friend of mine once told me that his bike becomes wobbly and hard to control at such high speeds, that didn't really happen with me, this thing was as stable as ever. he owns a pulsar.

this is the first performance type bike I've owned,i don't know much about bikes, my last one was a Yamaha RX135, which was amazing, in its own way ;-)

when i saw the first pictures of this bike, i was disappointed, but when i saw it, i realized that the pictures don;t do it justice, see it for yourself, it looks amazing. a real eye catcher. it was really worth the wait, otherwise i was gonna take an achiever.

also, today i bought some acrylic paints and brushes, tried painting my gym bag,and the bloody thing just kept on soaking the paint!! maybe i should just use fabric paint on old cotton tees, hehe.

random, drab

the 2nd semester has started, an this is drab, drab drab drab, no classes worth talkin bout, we've been divided into two different sections and it sucks. in the 'nothing to do' days of the holidays me and sahil must have visited each and every possible eating joint around the college, and have had our respective share of stomach ailments ;-)

at the moment im in the loo, (for ppl who didn't know, i have a wireless network in my apartment) experimenting with yahoo widgets,and using Firefox 2.0,better and more stable than the 'new' internet explorer 7 which keeps getting on my nerves with its constant hanging...and the best part of Firefox 2.0 is the built in spell check, pretty nice.

i'll be gettin my new bike (Bright red CBZ xtreme) on Monday, finally ill be able to get rid of the Yamaha RX135, which is really fun to ride, but there is nothing else good about it at all...

today i saw the movie 'a good year' and really, its one of the best ones I've seen in a month (besides 'the departed', which was pretty nice too) also i saw 'little Manhattan' on dvd, which too, was an amazing movie, one of the best romantic comedies I've seen :-) sweet.

well, nowadays i don;t have much to write except for these drab events of my own life, which i try to make better and more rewarding, or at least, more eventful.

ok, here goes, a list of things that have happened, just like old times-

• instinctively lit the burner under a plastic microwave plate with my lunch which i was supposed to put in the microwave for heating, now it has a hole in it.
• got a new (refurbished piece of crap) nokia 6600 from the nokia people as a replacement for my malfunctioning n-gage QD
• internet connection has been fixed (after 25 days, tata indicom ppl suck)
• one of the Pune flyovers is finally operational
• have been going regularly to the gym (abs, my new one)
• coming back to healthy food as we finally have a new maid who has started cooking
• got pimples bothering me again
• developed a renewed hatred for the rain
• saw some good movies, e.g- chocolat, shawshank redemption, etc.
• im done.
  

The agony (comedy?) of the one-sided crush

Ok, this is a topic I haven't touched in my blog, or anything, ever before.
But before I start let me make this clear that I am not experienced at all in relationships, I've had one 'excuse for a relationship', long distance too!! And that's bout it, and we hardly had anything in common, etc etc, blah blah, you really can’t envy me, it was hard and nerve wracking.

Now, every single person has a kind of one sided crush, or something, for a person they know, or don’t know (of ur one of the 'don’t know' people then please snap out of it, pretty faces don't mean anything, get to know em ppl) and it sucks, and im not talking about "you should let the person know" or "speak up before its too late" like those cheesy emails, if the person liked you, you would obviously know, but if the person views you as a friend (or worse still, a stranger!!, in which case u should stop being one) then its hard, coz you know the person likes you (hopefully hen she actually does, coz some people are really good at being 'polite') but not the way you like them. And by the way, if you think im being a bit too hard on the 'I like him/her but he/she doesn’t even know me' type of people, think about it, what would you ever talk to him/her about eventually if you can’t do that now? And what makes you think that as right now he/she isn't talking to you, they would want to later? You gotta at least befriend em, I think.

Also, one thing that scares me and im sure any other person in my position to death, is, that if i were dating that person, what would i have to do to keep the other person interested?? I hope I don’t have to do so much, I hope she/he doesn’t start being 'polite' eventually and break up out of 'boredom' or 'this is not working' as problems, 'not dating yet' seems more comfortable than a 'bad dating regime' if you think too much about it. the word 'dating', and not the word 'relationship', scares the shit out of me….not having an unlimited supply of money sucks!! (though I don't think it would make me feel soooo much better either, is this even relevant??)

im an emo person who has never actually been in a serious (or casual) relationship, and I know, that even if I did get into one, and it wasn’t with the gal I like, it would feel weird and fake-ish, coz it hardly has anything to do with making out or something, its more of the missing "man she couldn’t be more awesome, nobody compares to her" feeling you get, comparing the girl you want with the girl you have, being single isn't pathetic, its just the insecurity of the one slipping away by the minute, constantly eating up a perfectly normal, emotionally capable person... (I know the words "the one" are pukable, but think of it as simple English and not the shit they cook up in movies and novels,or maybe not)

Why most one-sided crushes are in fact, 'one sided' and usually 'anonymous' (except to really close friends) is because of the fear of your comfortable cocoon of anonymity or 'friendship' being taken away, coz if you are friends, and you try to ask her out, and she rejects ya!! you might get this awkwardness amongst you, and if ur a stranger, you might start getting intentionally avoided. The negatives are far less horrible in degree than the degree of happiness in the positive, but the degree of the risk exceeds everything , and there you go, vicious circle…

Well, all you can hope is that someday the gal/guy goes crazy and falls for you :-D or you could go ask em out (too bad if they're committed/spoken for) but usually for asking someone out you've gotta be very sure, or very stupid, and the 'very sure' feeling is like a myth (at least to me), but the very stupid (and you usually won't get her/him) is kinda common, fools falling for 'pretty faces' end up in this position. I'm so done with running after just pretty faces, id rather hang with someone who I cherish just being with than someone who just looks good on my arm. The attraction to the person you actually like elevates higher and higher as you get to know them better, and it has nothing to do with their looks.

I guess that's about all I can write about this situation, fantasies of great romances continue…..no I'm not being sarcastic or cynical, really.

justice is all we need, not peace, not food for everyone, just justice, everything else follows.

ok, so here's the thing, i had a tiff with somebody on orkut, he claimed to be a big politician's grandson (im not naming anyone here coz its not supposed to be 'sensible' according to everyone in my family) and i was told to remove the minutes of the same from a community, that dude threatened me and stuff too, actually he had been sending irritating messages to someone close to me, and was a real loser about her not giving a damn bout him, and so i sent him some messages (scraps, in the orkut world) to knock some sense into him, and evry1 in my family got into a bunch, why?? coz i did something 'stupid' and 'dangerous' yeah so my family (my dad to be precise) is looking out for us, doesnt want us to get into trouble, and i appreciate him for that, but what bites me is that i had to take the 'sensible' decision, and not the right one. the world needs to be without fear, politician's offsprings get the power they don't deserve due to fear, im not saying that the involved politician was bad or doesnt deserve the power, its just that his grandson misuses the power he wasnt supposed to have in the first place, he doesnt scare me, but i really love my father (it doesnt show much, but i do, he's like a hero who rose up to be an awesomely honest self-made successful man unlike certain brothers of his) , and i can't put him through the worry, however miniscule.

its a sad sad state we live in, i know that if the person mentioned here reads this, he wud brag to his friends about how he 'scared' me, but we all know who's the loser here don't we??

i swear when i grow up and don't depend on my family, im gonna make em proud, and give the world the justice it needs, the jolt it needs, this fight never will end, there will always be the fixers and the believers, this is not a promise, its a guideline...to conquer fear you gotta let go, and although people think i "can't even live without my ipod" and according to my mother im a 'coward' and a 'fool' to be writing stuff on the internet and not having the guts to actually face the consequences and get bashed up, i can endure more than anyone can imagine.....

justice, sweet justice, sweet sweet justice is all we bloody need, everyone should get what they deserve, good or bad, in the right proportion, and the ones responsible for this 'distribution' are no-one but all of us on the streets, in the colleges, the guy on the scooter next to you at the traffic signal looking out for his family in a middle class home trying to stay out of trouble (this is not a reference to my family exactly), as a collective, there is no trouble,.and you don't succumb to fear, you breed fear. the regulators are our choice, our gift and only due to us, do they become our curse....

man im burning inside, its unexplainable.

over enthusiastic about nothing

well,
diwali just got over, i always get excited that yes!! now we celebrate!! but.... there is this thing, the fireworks are pretty short-lived, and diwali has lost its charm for me, every time i blast a bomb, i think "why do i do this?" coz the aftermath is just discomfort, ringing ears, and loads of choking smoke.. btw i drove the car in traffic today :-) yay!! and after we reached the destination, the driver called up my dad and told him im not ready for it so i have to go to those empty lots at the trade fair grounds again :-(

some related pics:-










ok, actually unrelated, but this is a pic of snowy, our close friend's dog (actually he is the son of my bitch, we gave him/it to them). in this i was tempting him with a piece of gujia (diwali sweet, so you see, it is kinda related)



pretty obvious what the things above are....


from left:- me, surangana, priyank, my bro...



also, our school (little angels) had an alumni dinner, and i kinda shifted my pune return dates for that, and although i don't totally regret going to it, it wasnt all that great, i mean, i would love to spend time with my friends, mainly nishant and neda etc in a private get-together or something, im not really into big parties i guess, fun and really really close friends are what matter in the end man, they are the ones you hang out with and shit.... and that is cool and perfect, no need to make elaborate plans, organize something big, just call up and say "meet me here at this time" and reach there without questions, something like that....

pics related to that:-


now i know this looks confusing and stupid but some of the guys happened to land up on each other like this and i somehow landed up with this photo, pretty funny.

and besides this i don't really have too many interesting photos to put up here.......


now, about my current musical foray, im drowning in songs by 'the fray', 'nine inch nails','the afters','snow patrol',' and have kinda re-discovered lifehouse, earlier i was under the impression that theyre just another bubblegum pop band and used to listen to a couple of their songs e.g:- 'somewhere in between', 'hanging by a moment' and the hugely popular 'you and me', but now im excessively listening to them, they've got awesome awesome (and some of my favourite) lyrics and jason wade's singing voice and talent is unnnnmatched, really love em right now, especially the songs 'come back down', 'days go by', 'everything' , 'spin' , 'sick cycle carousel', 'everybody is someone', 'you belong to me' and "Blind" (i think i owe the 're-discovery' to yasmeen's mad raving about them,Hmmm.....)


and yeah, my school (LAHS) is losing class, man, i wonder why it is considered the best in the city!!!! everything is to do with competition and winning, everything is kiddish, while other schools make an adult out of you, these people kinda make u a mess, i don't know how to explain it, but, it isnt really as good as it seems, there is so much of a facade to the school it's as if its whole picture to the world is the 'awards' the children have been over stressed and over pampered to achieve....the achievers are over-pampered, the under-achievers are given the cold shoulder, its an all-singing, all-dancing freakshow!! the favouritism is soooooo bad, the behaviour of everyone soooooo cheesy, its as if it's not about student development, but development of the image of the school so that more students are caught in the deathtrap that the fake smiles in the advertisements made look like such an 'awesome place to send your child'....the posters of some of the competitions and plays etc arent even put up on the bulletin board because the school knows which the 'best' students for the competition are, and it sends the kids to the competitions, wins the competition, and the students are awarded during the assembly as ppl wonder "when did this happen???"


there, ive said enough, and please don't argue with me on this, you probably were one of the 'achievers' if you think the school 'absolutely rocks!!', sheesh, i used to be an 'achiever', but i never let it get to my head, ok so im overconfident sometimes, im sure that's coz of this school, obviously the ppl who run the school care about the students at some level, but taking pride in the number of awards isn't the way of showing it, because not everyone wins awards, but everyone is affected by the lack of attention..... ever seen a principal calling an underachieving student their 'favourite' here??? its always the award winners, the liked ones...


looks like i hadn't said enough ;-)


now i have.....


ok i end with two pictures, the front....


and the rear view....



from my new house!!!! (under construction)



cya later children.

Those Lonavala trip pictures i promised.....

everyone grinning away for some reason :-)

awesome view of tiger valley.....

sepehr (from iran) with a camel out of all animals....

Me and sepehr...

all of us (the bikers) before we sped off back to pune...

all of us waiting at the train crossing...

Saumitra and an ecstatic karan...

organized crime

hi there, im in gwalior right now, and just as i was getting on the train i witnessed such an awesomely huge act of corruption it makes me cringe, my Bro's friend had come to drop us both to the station, and as he was leaving, two men just caught hold of him and asked him to show his mobile phone to them, they showed their ID as government people....now, he showed them the phone, and they looked thru everything, and they found a pornographic clip in it (no surprise, who doesnt have them nowadays???) and they said - "this is a cybercrime, you will have to pay us about 10,000 fine, or atleast 5,000", they also checked my bro's phone but didnt get anything, now, we discussed it with him (our friend, inside the train, with the men waiting outside) and told him to not give them a penny (we know the law has nothing against accessing and creation of pornography where the participant is above 18 years of age:-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_pornography_laws_by_region), and say that you want to talk to your dad and/or lawyer, so he went out, first tried to coax them into letting him go with simple pleas, and then, he told them - "ok, gimme my phone ill call my dad", so they said "won't your dad scold you???" so he said "yeah, maybe slap me a bit, but i have to give the money to the government don't i??" and so they reluctantly gave him the phone, and as he started dialing the number - "ok ok we'll let you go" they said, and then, sure as hell they did!!!

now, this shows clearly that these people were under the impression that our friend is a "delinquent-dad-fearing-rich-spoilt-kid" and that to keep this 'matter' away from his dad he will just give them the cash, this is high level corruption people, just demand to see your lawyer and these bastards piss their pants, they just play on emotions and the fear of ppl's 'reputation' being tossed, and cmon, our friend here is a bloody 26 year old bloke, not a kid.....

ok, besides that, this 'train' took me and my bro to gwalior, our home town, pretty uneventful train journey (how boring!!) now im home, the weather here is raw heat most of the time, some new shops have opened up in gwalior, and now my favourite fruit is available here, the majestic kiwi!!!! i just fixed up my year old guitar, and have been trying to 'online-teach' myself some basic chords etc. ill join proper classes in pune when i go back, one day i wanna play "you belong to me" by jason wade (of lifehouse) perfectly, one of my fav acoustic guitar songs, by now, ive achieved just the first few notes, self-learning guitar is hell!!! my nani (my mom's mom) is here too, and man, im so happy to see so much bloody food in the house!! in my pune apartment i had just tomatoes and those soup powders, but this place is stocked like anything, and as i entered my home, i fell in love with my plasma tv all over again (sigh) i was tellin my bro "just look at it, just look at that damn thing!!!" like a crazy person, its like a wierd fetish you know, you can never be truly happy without a plasma TV (My philosophy) first thing im buying when i start earning is one, hehe. i couldnt be more of a movie/TV buff, wish my dad would filthily spoil me and my bro, heehee, then we wud have a plasma in the apartment, ok, enough with the TV.

again, i have run out of things to say, as i said, uneventful = boring......

and yeah, apparently sepehr an mani are 'divorced' (had to enter a random stupid thing, gotta keep my blog interesting)

and yeah, not all my posts have to do with corruption, its just that corruption has to do with everything, so its kinda unavoidable sometimes.....

leave comments people.......

I Am Corrupt

it has happened with me three times now, first two times, i entered a two-wheeler no entry area by mistake (yes, the same one, twice) and today, i entered a one-way road from the wrong side.now, the policemen, are supposed to fine me for Rs. 200 and give me a receipt, this way, the money goes to the state, and is used for whatever. but, these policemen are shrewd businessmen, they say "instead of paying 200 and going to the booth for a receipt, just give us 100 and leave"

now, anyone would choose the latter and give a 100 rupee note and rush off, that is what i did, and man, usually i forget things like this, but it still bites me, i saved 50% of my cash, but lost all peace of mind and dignity (yeah, i can't find a better word, and this pretty much sums it up)

its like, i had a choice, whether to honestly give 200 bucks to the government, or give 100 cash to the fat corrupt policeman (even the most respectable looking policemen do this shit), and i did the cowardly thing, the thing that every criminal does, easy way of making money, its like stealing from your country (this sounds lame too, but our country pretty much sucks because of the same reason), its like using money you weren't supposed to have...... it sucks!!! I'm not pointing any fingers at anyone who would want to just 'get out of there' coz that is exactly what i did, its just that (although I'm gonna try to see those little boards saying 'one way' or 'no-entry') if this happens to me again, I'm gonna slog their asses, tell them i wanna pay 200 bucks and get a fucking receipt, whatever my wallet sez, and whatever my 'criminal instinct' inclines me to do.... and by the way, the phrase "as if i will make a difference" does not make any sense, think about it.

ok, in other news, i haven't posted since a loooooong time, so, to sum up the events:-

• went to the resurrection concert on 2nd oct
• awesome concert, got interrupted by the cops though due to 'elevated noise levels on gandhi jayanti', demonic resurrection rock!!!
• gave my IT Practicals, pulled all-nighters to complete the bloody assignments, got 94/100
• went to the 'Rock syndrome' rock competition, my college (SICSR) won two out of 5 awards, best bassist and best drummer
• Saw 'Rang de basanti' again at this film festival for free using prarthana's pass, that movie moves me every time, after seeing it, even the sleep at night seems different
• felt sorry for yasmeen coz she hasn't seen the movie :-D (this is dumb, but is related ot the last item in the list and comes under 'current events' so..)
• kinda realised that my bike has the worst mileage ever
• wallowed in self pity (i don't remember why, but its like routine nowadays)
• finally got a protective screen and removed the iPod's factory plastic thing.
• started eating tomatoes out of the fridge coz we're out of fruits
• lost like 10 kg's (thanks to yasmeen's weighing machine, i didn't have to go to the gym just for my weight) now im approximately 88
• kinda worried about the ever there swelling and occasional pain in my foot (some ligament thing)
• Gave my n-gage QD for repairs at the nokia service centre situated in the worst part of pune (think, pune's armpit) Swargate!!!
• ...................................er......yeah thats about it for now,ciao.