coming across old text messages
makes me want to puke
makes it hard to breathe...
what you said in them,
the words couldn't be sweeter
but they do become more painful at every viewing without failure.
how can we kiss without wanting it again?
how can we hug without not wanting to separate?
how can your head lay there on my chest...
without feeling a comfort everlasting?
how can your laughter not mean you're happy?
"i'll never be the same,
yeah...I'll never be the same again..." Note:- these particular lines have been stolen, from the following song:-
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Now playing: The Honorary Title - Only One Week
via FoxyTunes
this song is like something i wrote in my sleep, except that i can't write, bleh...wish i could. it's such an attractive quality. one that men use to portray so many lies, i wouldn't though...although, now that i think of it...im happy i can't write poetry or prose or anything very well, because i believe that the ability to write well makes you deceitful.if you can write the stories of fictional characters, you tend to weave some of the 'fiction' in your own lives to screw with people's brains (e.g seduction, serenading)...ugh...that's why i hate male writers, except the humorous ones...I'd rather write the truth about myself and the world in the form of un-beautiful mediocre text.
lyrics of 'only one week':-
Have your lips graced another's yet or am I the only one?
Every time I try to speak to you, those are the thoughts that run
Say something else girl, I don't wanna have to leave
Our communication is hardly what it used to be
When can I claim you to be
My own, so selfishly?
When can I claim you to be
My own, my only?
Want nothing more than our futures to collide
Can't tell this is gonna be one of many disappointing nights
Traces of you are so minimal
A black and white by photo booth with us
When can I claim you to be
My own, so selfishly?
When can I claim you to be
My own, my only?
And I have only one week to make you mine
And I may never see you again
It's not only for me, it's not only for me
There's a little bit, little bit here for you
But I'm willing to wait, I'm willing
Day time is no longer the hours spent
[Incomprehensible] rather the hours to obsess
And the night is far worse
'Cause I know you're alone with her
And thoughts of, of us have been deserted
It will never be the same
I'll never be the same again
I will never be the same again
I have only one week to make you mine
And I may never see you again
Time is few and far between
There is someone else who needs
There is someone else who needs your attention
But I'm willing to wait, I am willing to wait
I'm willing to wait, I'm willing to wait
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
the log blog experiment...
yesterday (sunday august 24th 2008), i carried a notebook around with me, loggign my day and stupid thoughts...now im putting it all here:-
log start - 1:16 p.m, place - coffee stop/cheap xerox place, model colony, pune
when I've got my headphones on, communication with people seems like an avoidable unnecessary thing, it's like 'let's get it over with'
now playing - coldplay - violet hill
*moves foot to the beats*
the clouds look pretty kickass today. the sun is just a little higher than 'just right', actually it just turned to much higher that that!! argh!! need shade!! now im just sitting around waiting for some 'xeroxes' for tomorrow's exam to come around listening to people talk about what they've eaten since morning
log stop 1:32 p.m
log start 2:19 p.m, place - bench opposite spencer's, model colony
just had a heavy lunch, alone, have been walking around to make stressed out tummy feel better, walked the length of one 'nude' by 'Radiohead'
Now playing- Oasis - Supersonic
sitting on the benches across spencer's in model colony (hey they mention 'yellow submarine' in the lyrics!!) The clouds still look kickass, except for this little menacing bunch of dark ones in a corner, but i don't fear them, they 'menaced' yesterday too, and it didn't rain at all yesterday :) this bench is nice! also an awesome breeze has somehow started blowing, im contemplating going up to dhriv's terrace...*looks up to the terrace* bleh, too much of a climb...
i have the phrase -
'our weapon, is sound,
our weapons are loud'
stuck in my head!! i love shaair and func, what lovely people!!love every word of the lyrics and the things they say, YEAH!!
Now playing - The Beatles - If i fell (in love with you)
Monica is an amazing creature, what kickass people!! now, SOHO's management are choots, this gig should have been in the SOHO's 'club' area, where people dance, not int eh 'Italian restaurant' area! advertised as 'livealive: a night of fusion and jazz' when did anyone allow you to to genre0lize shaair and func? and so wrong-ish! People probably expected a 'dinner band' which they obviously aren't
Now playing - Yeah Yeah Yeahs - They don't love you like i love you
i'm floored by Snf, they had been mentioned to me before, i wanted to get my hands on some of their music, and then i find out they're playing in pune through gigpad.com, yay!! i had been listening to their tracks streaming from their website some hours before the gig-time, while showering, (well, i didn't actually shower, the water was cold)..erm...but i did loaf around my house, picking things up, listening to their music again, lovely, lovely lyrics.
Now playing - Jack johnson - What you thought you need
I feel like apologizing for the sad crowd, but they were pretty misinformed. Damn they shouls have thrown you people into the club, damn damn damn!! the 'dancing' crowd would have been hit with you like a grenade!! (sorry will smith) and i jsut got a call from a friend who's intrigued about the fact that i parked my bke in front of her house and didn't come to visit...bleh...social obligations, being social is so not necessary.
Now Playing - The beatles - Lucy in the sky with diamonds
People and their needs always slow you down when you're just 'socializing' for the sake of it
.......long pause........
this is pretty stupid, im going to sleep.
log stop 2:44 p.m
log start 3:25 p.m, place - Garima's house
Now Playing - The Beatles - Hey jude
woken up by the burning sun, whew. Ah, there it goes behind some nice nice clouds, i gonna go now
......long pause.......
now im just sitting at Garima's place, whew, can't think, can't write, can't sleep.
log stop 3:40 p.m
log start 3:47 p.m, still at Garima's place
im now lying on Garima's bed, she's on a video call with some guy, i have my music on, i could eavesdrop if i wanted but bleh...let it be...i want shaair and func's music!! and i want it now!! waaaaah!! my fingers and the back of this pen constantly keep beating on the notebook to the beat of the song im listening to :)
Now Playing - Joseph Arthur - Honey and the moon
........long pause coz kanika suddenly called on my phone...
log stop 4:11 p.m
log start - 1:16 p.m, place - coffee stop/cheap xerox place, model colony, pune
when I've got my headphones on, communication with people seems like an avoidable unnecessary thing, it's like 'let's get it over with'
now playing - coldplay - violet hill
*moves foot to the beats*
the clouds look pretty kickass today. the sun is just a little higher than 'just right', actually it just turned to much higher that that!! argh!! need shade!! now im just sitting around waiting for some 'xeroxes' for tomorrow's exam to come around listening to people talk about what they've eaten since morning
log stop 1:32 p.m
log start 2:19 p.m, place - bench opposite spencer's, model colony
just had a heavy lunch, alone, have been walking around to make stressed out tummy feel better, walked the length of one 'nude' by 'Radiohead'
Now playing- Oasis - Supersonic
sitting on the benches across spencer's in model colony (hey they mention 'yellow submarine' in the lyrics!!) The clouds still look kickass, except for this little menacing bunch of dark ones in a corner, but i don't fear them, they 'menaced' yesterday too, and it didn't rain at all yesterday :) this bench is nice! also an awesome breeze has somehow started blowing, im contemplating going up to dhriv's terrace...*looks up to the terrace* bleh, too much of a climb...
i have the phrase -
'our weapon, is sound,
our weapons are loud'
stuck in my head!! i love shaair and func, what lovely people!!love every word of the lyrics and the things they say, YEAH!!
Now playing - The Beatles - If i fell (in love with you)
Monica is an amazing creature, what kickass people!! now, SOHO's management are choots, this gig should have been in the SOHO's 'club' area, where people dance, not int eh 'Italian restaurant' area! advertised as 'livealive: a night of fusion and jazz' when did anyone allow you to to genre0lize shaair and func? and so wrong-ish! People probably expected a 'dinner band' which they obviously aren't
Now playing - Yeah Yeah Yeahs - They don't love you like i love you
i'm floored by Snf, they had been mentioned to me before, i wanted to get my hands on some of their music, and then i find out they're playing in pune through gigpad.com, yay!! i had been listening to their tracks streaming from their website some hours before the gig-time, while showering, (well, i didn't actually shower, the water was cold)..erm...but i did loaf around my house, picking things up, listening to their music again, lovely, lovely lyrics.
Now playing - Jack johnson - What you thought you need
I feel like apologizing for the sad crowd, but they were pretty misinformed. Damn they shouls have thrown you people into the club, damn damn damn!! the 'dancing' crowd would have been hit with you like a grenade!! (sorry will smith) and i jsut got a call from a friend who's intrigued about the fact that i parked my bke in front of her house and didn't come to visit...bleh...social obligations, being social is so not necessary.
Now Playing - The beatles - Lucy in the sky with diamonds
People and their needs always slow you down when you're just 'socializing' for the sake of it
.......long pause........
this is pretty stupid, im going to sleep.
log stop 2:44 p.m
log start 3:25 p.m, place - Garima's house
Now Playing - The Beatles - Hey jude
woken up by the burning sun, whew. Ah, there it goes behind some nice nice clouds, i gonna go now
......long pause.......
now im just sitting at Garima's place, whew, can't think, can't write, can't sleep.
log stop 3:40 p.m
log start 3:47 p.m, still at Garima's place
im now lying on Garima's bed, she's on a video call with some guy, i have my music on, i could eavesdrop if i wanted but bleh...let it be...i want shaair and func's music!! and i want it now!! waaaaah!! my fingers and the back of this pen constantly keep beating on the notebook to the beat of the song im listening to :)
Now Playing - Joseph Arthur - Honey and the moon
........long pause coz kanika suddenly called on my phone...
log stop 4:11 p.m
Saturday, August 09, 2008
rantings on possessions, sweet girls, and retards...(actual retards, not my friends)...
the things you own, end up owning you... - Tyler durden
being able to walk around town without any worries is bloody liberating, i almost wish i didn't have insurance for my possessions!!
she...is the sweetest thing ever...(ooh the pixies sound so much like the Beatles sometimes!!) like this liqueur chocolate with extra strong liqueur, that is intoxicating enough to make you not care about all the other shit in the world, her company makes you wanna kick the starving kids in Africa to death because they just don't seem important (i never cared too much about them anyway)
speaking of kids, i went to this 'retard meeting place' recently, some of my friends like to go there and meet them and be all nice and they keep saying "they're so sweet!!" etc etc, why the hell do you wanna do that? i mean, seriously, i was freaked out!! these people are not that developed mentally, but look at their lives, (and this thought has been put into my head by a fictional character, one Gregory house) they don't have to be nice to everyone, they don't have to learn to say the right thing at the right time, they don't have to adhere to social formalities, any mistake they make is a 'adorable', people like to say 'it's so sad how unfortunate they are' they're bloody fortunate!! to live a life without judgment!! they can crap in their pants and they'll be helped out and not mocked...and yeah i think it's just wrong to be giving the retards 'special treatment', they're human after all, however childish they may be, they're still assholes on the inside like any of us...their assholeness is just taken as 'adorable activities', if i spit on somebody it'd start a feud, these guys get laughter and sweetness, bleh...
it's hard juggling blogs, random rants sometimes jsut end up turning into redable material!! (kinda..hehe)
this was originally neing written only for http://angadrandom.blogspot.com/ but here it is, on the other one too (http://sharanx182.blogspot.com)
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Now playing: Pixies - Here Comes Your Man
via FoxyTunes
being able to walk around town without any worries is bloody liberating, i almost wish i didn't have insurance for my possessions!!
she...is the sweetest thing ever...(ooh the pixies sound so much like the Beatles sometimes!!) like this liqueur chocolate with extra strong liqueur, that is intoxicating enough to make you not care about all the other shit in the world, her company makes you wanna kick the starving kids in Africa to death because they just don't seem important (i never cared too much about them anyway)
speaking of kids, i went to this 'retard meeting place' recently, some of my friends like to go there and meet them and be all nice and they keep saying "they're so sweet!!" etc etc, why the hell do you wanna do that? i mean, seriously, i was freaked out!! these people are not that developed mentally, but look at their lives, (and this thought has been put into my head by a fictional character, one Gregory house) they don't have to be nice to everyone, they don't have to learn to say the right thing at the right time, they don't have to adhere to social formalities, any mistake they make is a 'adorable', people like to say 'it's so sad how unfortunate they are' they're bloody fortunate!! to live a life without judgment!! they can crap in their pants and they'll be helped out and not mocked...and yeah i think it's just wrong to be giving the retards 'special treatment', they're human after all, however childish they may be, they're still assholes on the inside like any of us...their assholeness is just taken as 'adorable activities', if i spit on somebody it'd start a feud, these guys get laughter and sweetness, bleh...
it's hard juggling blogs, random rants sometimes jsut end up turning into redable material!! (kinda..hehe)
this was originally neing written only for http://angadrandom.blogspot.com/ but here it is, on the other one too (http://sharanx182.blogspot.com)
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Now playing: Pixies - Here Comes Your Man
via FoxyTunes
change is inevitable...
many times in literature and the throes of cheesy dialogue do we hear the lines "if he/she loves you, he/she should take you as you are" (we're gonna stick with 'she' now, it's easier) i.e a person would say to you "i wouldn't change a thing in you" or "i don't want you to have to change for me, it isn't right"
come on, who are you kidding? nobody's perfect (cliched, but true) if you're with somebody, there are some habits or behavioral patterns that you definitely would like to change...although you learn to live with every bit of these things, given a choice, you'd change a lot...and now let's look at the other side, if you really care for someone you'd want to change for them yourself!! ideally, i don't like keeping my house clean or shirts folded or ironed or anything, im just lazy, but if somebody i care for would be happy if i did, i would!! we humans enjoy making other humans close to us happy...unconditional or otherwise, I'd be happy to see you happy, you'd be my reason to fold my shirts, because let's face it, folding shirts is, good for me too, i know that...but i can live without doing that...but when i know im being asked to because im cared for, it feels nice :) every shirt folded, every bed made, every bit of the house kept clean...would make you feel nice when you do it, because you know that this change matters...a man in love, would do anything to make his interest happy, and these are all just metaphors and/or examples...change, is very welcome if it is for someone you love...of course that doesn't mean i transform into this prim and proper gentleman, we don't want a transformation, we just want you to care for us to tweak ourselves :) im dying to change...kinda...ok that doesn't make much sense...
men will be truly men only without women...and neither of the two 'positions' are comparable...except that we have the option to 'drop out' of a relationship :-P (though nobody would do that to be a 'man' again unless they have a truly intolerable woman)
im talking about something very typical...not all women and men can identify with this situation...it's a point of view over a fictional story...something made up...something which actually follows certain norms, hmmmmm....im so tempted to contradict myself right now!! but for that you need the example of 'the perfect woman'...agh...all women, however 'liberal' or 'chilled out' have some common unavoidable traits...it's ok, we do like women for those :)
a quote, totally contradictory:-
when asked about marriage:- "we're a generation of men raised by women, I'm wondering if another woman is really the answer we need" - Tyler Durden
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Now playing: Frou Frou - Breathe In
via FoxyTunes
come on, who are you kidding? nobody's perfect (cliched, but true) if you're with somebody, there are some habits or behavioral patterns that you definitely would like to change...although you learn to live with every bit of these things, given a choice, you'd change a lot...and now let's look at the other side, if you really care for someone you'd want to change for them yourself!! ideally, i don't like keeping my house clean or shirts folded or ironed or anything, im just lazy, but if somebody i care for would be happy if i did, i would!! we humans enjoy making other humans close to us happy...unconditional or otherwise, I'd be happy to see you happy, you'd be my reason to fold my shirts, because let's face it, folding shirts is, good for me too, i know that...but i can live without doing that...but when i know im being asked to because im cared for, it feels nice :) every shirt folded, every bed made, every bit of the house kept clean...would make you feel nice when you do it, because you know that this change matters...a man in love, would do anything to make his interest happy, and these are all just metaphors and/or examples...change, is very welcome if it is for someone you love...of course that doesn't mean i transform into this prim and proper gentleman, we don't want a transformation, we just want you to care for us to tweak ourselves :) im dying to change...kinda...ok that doesn't make much sense...
men will be truly men only without women...and neither of the two 'positions' are comparable...except that we have the option to 'drop out' of a relationship :-P (though nobody would do that to be a 'man' again unless they have a truly intolerable woman)
im talking about something very typical...not all women and men can identify with this situation...it's a point of view over a fictional story...something made up...something which actually follows certain norms, hmmmmm....im so tempted to contradict myself right now!! but for that you need the example of 'the perfect woman'...agh...all women, however 'liberal' or 'chilled out' have some common unavoidable traits...it's ok, we do like women for those :)
a quote, totally contradictory:-
when asked about marriage:- "we're a generation of men raised by women, I'm wondering if another woman is really the answer we need" - Tyler Durden
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Now playing: Frou Frou - Breathe In
via FoxyTunes
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