I Am Corrupt

it has happened with me three times now, first two times, i entered a two-wheeler no entry area by mistake (yes, the same one, twice) and today, i entered a one-way road from the wrong side.now, the policemen, are supposed to fine me for Rs. 200 and give me a receipt, this way, the money goes to the state, and is used for whatever. but, these policemen are shrewd businessmen, they say "instead of paying 200 and going to the booth for a receipt, just give us 100 and leave"

now, anyone would choose the latter and give a 100 rupee note and rush off, that is what i did, and man, usually i forget things like this, but it still bites me, i saved 50% of my cash, but lost all peace of mind and dignity (yeah, i can't find a better word, and this pretty much sums it up)

its like, i had a choice, whether to honestly give 200 bucks to the government, or give 100 cash to the fat corrupt policeman (even the most respectable looking policemen do this shit), and i did the cowardly thing, the thing that every criminal does, easy way of making money, its like stealing from your country (this sounds lame too, but our country pretty much sucks because of the same reason), its like using money you weren't supposed to have...... it sucks!!! I'm not pointing any fingers at anyone who would want to just 'get out of there' coz that is exactly what i did, its just that (although I'm gonna try to see those little boards saying 'one way' or 'no-entry') if this happens to me again, I'm gonna slog their asses, tell them i wanna pay 200 bucks and get a fucking receipt, whatever my wallet sez, and whatever my 'criminal instinct' inclines me to do.... and by the way, the phrase "as if i will make a difference" does not make any sense, think about it.

ok, in other news, i haven't posted since a loooooong time, so, to sum up the events:-

• went to the resurrection concert on 2nd oct
• awesome concert, got interrupted by the cops though due to 'elevated noise levels on gandhi jayanti', demonic resurrection rock!!!
• gave my IT Practicals, pulled all-nighters to complete the bloody assignments, got 94/100
• went to the 'Rock syndrome' rock competition, my college (SICSR) won two out of 5 awards, best bassist and best drummer
• Saw 'Rang de basanti' again at this film festival for free using prarthana's pass, that movie moves me every time, after seeing it, even the sleep at night seems different
• felt sorry for yasmeen coz she hasn't seen the movie :-D (this is dumb, but is related ot the last item in the list and comes under 'current events' so..)
• kinda realised that my bike has the worst mileage ever
• wallowed in self pity (i don't remember why, but its like routine nowadays)
• finally got a protective screen and removed the iPod's factory plastic thing.
• started eating tomatoes out of the fridge coz we're out of fruits
• lost like 10 kg's (thanks to yasmeen's weighing machine, i didn't have to go to the gym just for my weight) now im approximately 88
• kinda worried about the ever there swelling and occasional pain in my foot (some ligament thing)
• Gave my n-gage QD for repairs at the nokia service centre situated in the worst part of pune (think, pune's armpit) Swargate!!!
• ...................................er......yeah thats about it for now,ciao.