'the notebook'??!!??

i just saw 'the notebook', and to be honest, i don't know what to say...

it wasn't as bad as so many human males told me (except one, this strange guy at WNS,hehe)
but it wasn't as good as so many human females told me...

now, i might have liked it if i didn't find it that predictable, and i found it predictable because i had seen this hindi movie "u, me aur hum", which has totally ripped off the concept and i had heard about this... (now i feel guilty for saying 'ripped off' because i liked the movie, the hindi one, except the first one hour)

whatever, watching the hindi...um...'similar concept movie' ruined my experience of watching the original....kinda...i liked it, but could have liked it better if i hadn't come across the concept before...and as most hindi movies somehow manage (fake bastards) they made the ending a bit happier :-P

so...as a result...i came out after watching the hindi movie with a 'warm fuzzy feeling', that feeling, maybe, could have belonged to 'the notebook' had i seen it before!! but would the hindi one still succeed in the same?? ARRGHHH!! im just pissed...but 'the notebook' wasn't bad...not bad at all...and im being generous here...im happy i got this bit of curiosity off my chest...

MP3

im doing something which i thought would be pretty fun to do :-P

currently watching this movie called MP3 (mera pehla pehla pyar), in VLC player behind this window, i've just paused the movie..taking abreak...and im gonna be logging my views as i watch it :)

im at this point in the movie:- 0:45:04

at this point these two kids (teenagers) are looking at each other standing in the rain...with a song playing in the background..

the movie has been pretty enjoyable up till now, very relatable because of the way the main character introduces his friends, the stereotypes, which are very recognizable!! :-P only thing that has ticked me off up till now is that pathetic little song they threw in that his friend's sang for him, wtf? it's been pretty funny too, the movie :)

note: i seriously don't have anythign else to watch, but this aint too bad up till now!!

ok...now im gonna watch the movie...
ciao... (wait for updates)

now,
im at this point in the movie:- 0:50:48

what the FUCK is wrong with this movie?? couldn't the script writers come up with a better reason for a fight? god!!!

now,
im at this point in the movie:- 0:59:00

though the time doesn't matter, fuck this girl is HOT/cute in a way very different from all these typical movie stars/models :-P very good casting!! very believable looking actors :)

now,
im at this point in the movie:- 1:01:11

in the squash court,fakest laugh, EVER!!

watching the credits now...

it was, a pretty entertaining movie, not too bad to pass the night away :) and i kinda liked the title track...bleh...

although it was kinda predictable around the end...the plot was stupid too now that i think of it...hmmmm...whatever...

their chemistry is kinda weird, these two...hehe

i feel like such an idiot now to have dedicated a whole blog post to this movie....

also one more thing, i can't beleive they were able to conjure up only 7,000 for him!! after this movie released, i sold my old 40 gb monochrome iPod for 8,000 to a guy, heehee...so these people in the movie are pretty pathetic salesmen :)

also in this frame, she looks like rachel bilson!!:-

why facebook is depressing....

this is from some weird application...

Note:- a few days ago the count for people who said 'yes' was 0, the '1' kinda kills the humor now...bleh...and the effect...agh!!

box car racer (cat like thief):-
Cat like thief she stole air from my lungs
Leave me standing on this lonely grave
I dug it out in case she turns away

angels and airwaves (the adventure):-
Any type of love it will be shown
Like every single tree reach for the sky
If you`re gonna to fall
I'll let you know
That I will pick you up
Like you for I

blink 182 (going away to college):-
Why does it feel the same
To fall in love or break it off
And if young love is just a game
Then I must have missed the kick off
Dont depend on me to ever follow through on anything
But Id go through hell for you and

I havent been this scared in a long time
And Im so unprepared so heres your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This worlds an ugly place
But youre so beautiful to me

plus 44 (little death):-
Please, sleep my darling, sleep
Your car crash in slow motion
Won't upset the pace on distant stars
And one by one the years of our lives
Stumble as the moments pass
So please hold on, so please hold on

So fall asleep with the windows open
Come to me with the worst you've said and done
You'll close your eyes and see me
A little death makes life more meaningful
I stand no chance at all

just excerpts from the various bands formed here and there by mark tom and travis...
i don't know what anyone would make of the last one, 'little death', look at these for an insight and believe what you want:-
http://www.songmeanings.net/lyric.php?lid=3530822107858627535
http://www.songmeanings.net/lyric.php?lid=3530822107858634590

i won't say all of these are my favorite lyrics from all their songs...they're just the ones that struck me in this moment :)

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Now playing: Sugar Ray - Someday
via FoxyTunes

im just a happy kid, stuck with the heart of a sad punk...

ironically, one of the most depressing songs I've heard is 'Happy kid' by 'nada surf'...

again, when i decided to write a new blog post, i thought of writing about all the movies i recently saw (sleepless in Seattle, juno etc) and the music i heard (juno soundtrack, this song by never ending white lights) and again i thought, enh...who wants to go through all that effort, now it just seems like effort, earlier i just wanted to get my opinion on every damn thing out to the world...

i've noticed that i HATE people singing along to music instinctively, (most people, some people, i like when they sing alon :) ) although i do it with anything I've heard...for example, i make it a point to not play songs by hinder etc when there a lot of people around (specially women, ugh, they all seem to be crazy about hinder and nickleback) because if i do...everyone starts singing along!! so i try to play songs which are likeable, but which nobody has heard....

yeah i think that's all that my mind could come up with today...

oh yeah i was listening to this song in which a line goes:-
"I spend more time in front of mirrors
Than any gent should"

and this reminded me of all the people at my gym, who (this they do as if there's no one in the room) look at themselves in the large mirror/wall at different angles, making different poses (in their underwear) even different expressions!! now, generally, all of us look at ourselves in the mirror...but i, disgusted my the sheer vanity of all this gym shit, don't feel like looking at myself in the mirror anymore!! bleh...it's like 'eeyuch'...why!!??

ok im done.

oh and i also realized that nine inch nails are the wisest band out there, listen to 'march of the pigs' and 'starfuckers inc.' to get a drift of what i mean...

i feel so fucking loved....shit.

"oh yes im fine, everything's just wonderful, im having the time of my life"

for the not very bright...yes, that is sarcasm.

it's like i have permanent blogger's block, earlier if anything out of the ordinary (or even very ordinary) happened in my life, id write about it...at a time i'd only write about all the unfair things in life...try to make my writing interesting, in this one..im just trying to bloody make the content look different from my previous posts, to avoid myself from getting bored of it...bah.

now things i could talk about:-
-the flooding of my apartment
-the awesome split uplugged concert i attended, and how different it was (i would put the word 'different' in quotes, but it'd look like i was disrespecting split, and i don't wanna do that :) )
-mood indigo, and the ride to bombay, also the mahabaleshwar ride...
-new friends here and there
-anleey's cat giving birth to dead babies and eating them

now, why i wouldn't write about the above things:-

what the fuck do you (the reader) care about he flooding of my apartment? happens to many people...someone leaves a tap on...shit happens...bollocks. the concert now, i've written about so many concerts in the past, i don't really care if anyone else enjoys my view of the music or not, i don't wanna waste my time putting a visual image of a concert in the readers mind, go get your tickets, and attend it yourself...i enjoyed it, so could've you...again, shit happens. now the ride, once again, way too many rides in history, you wanna feel what i felt? take your bike and ride along...me telling you 'how fast i went on those awesome roads' doesn't interest me...and is useless for you too...you'll never understand it until you do it...

now the 'new friends', the definition of a friend nowadays doesn't go beyond having somebody's phone number....so i'd say, realistically, that i have 'potential new friends', what would i write about them? bloody assumptions?

now the cat...just check out these awesome pictures:-

the average donkey looks like chad micheal murray

i came across this phenomenon recently...look at these two pictures:-

exhibit A. - Donkey:-


and...
exhibit B. - Chad:-


now look at their eyes...and you'll see what I'm talking about!!!

usb 3.0 emotion speed transfer review

ok, about me at the moment:-
-in Gwalior
-thus, bored to the point of pulling my nails out with pliers just to entertain myself

let's get on with my strange views again,
now, it so happens that when ya like someone, you think "if only she/he....(actually let's use 'she', i don't like obliques)....knew how much i like her"

how does that work? and why should it work? I'd think that if she knew exactly how much she liked me, and this information was transferred from my brain to hers through a high bandwidth cable, with no loss in translation...where there have to be no words woven to get the emotions across...she'd like me back, coz now she'd know exactly the extent of my interest in her...and should that make make me 'irresistible' and 'un-rejectable'? think of it with a perverse empathy...if some strange girl who i don't give two shits about and am not the least bit interested in comes and 'opens her heart' to me and lets me know how she adores me (please, this is a hypothesis, so try to imagine :-P) and how she can't sleep thinking about me...and stalks me on facebook...and collects pictures of me from people's phones...and other creepy things...would all this actually make me stop thinking about other people and fixate me on her? absolutely not!! I'd probably get creeped out and somehow reject her and eventually brag to my friends about 'how this random chick was crazy about me' (that's how the sick male mind actually works) i dunno what would the girl's position be, probably embarrassed...whatever. ('whatever' is all i can come up with when trying to think of the girl's position, proving that my theory about 'hardwire feelings transfer' wouldn't work, sometimes words do come close to the hypothetical transfer)

so...should a person keep hoping that someday the girl "will understand how i feel"???

how much ever you like a person you still...can't...change...their...mind.

let's keep hanging on for some lame miracles though i guess :-P

Optimism!!!

btw i was listening to this song 'illegal' by shakira, now, is the line "you said you would love me until you die, and as far as i know you're still alive" just sappy, or is it also mildly 'humorously sarcastic' :-P ? *snicker snicker* heehee



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Now playing: Radiohead - Paranoid Android
via FoxyTunes

we are all made of opinions (why did moby think it was 'stars'??)

I'm semi-aimless and happy (kinda) today :) seen some changes in people,good changes, not too much to my advantage but still :) besides that I've made some more sucky 'vicious circle' type observations....

I've noticed that during exam time, some mutual 'study groups' are always formed, some by begging a person better at a subject, and some just out of of mutual understanding...and during this course...there is so much lying and conniving going on it's mind boggling, one group would lie to an individual or individuals about their whereabouts and study timings so that the individual(s) do not come and interrupt their studies by 'showing up' and disturbing them.....so many of us 'individuals' are left out roaming like idiots because of our reputation...i mean, it would be fine if we were just honest with each other, but that doesn't really happen, and would be kind of awkward if it did, not many people can pull of such coldness, hehe...and don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming anyone, because sometimes I'm part of the..er..'group' too ;-) so it is indeed, a vicious circle...so you see, we're all part of the 'world' as they say, and it's ways penetrate the best of us...we're usually not left any choice, gotta do this for the greater good...

now, the other thing, i had been showering at a friend's place because the 'bath system' at my tiny temporary disgusting apartment sucks, cold water, no 'shower' and a cramped environment...and that guy let me, he did express some dislike when he thought our boxers got mixed up (they didn't,it was a funny misunderstanding) and even more when i slipped and fell on his sink, breaking it in the process (not even his, his roommate's) so the next time i showed u at his place (by now i had taken it for granted that he 'doesn't mind') he told me pretty diplomatically that it was 'enough' and stuff and he doesn't want me to take bath there anymore...so, i was kind a disappointed but not upset, coz it was ok, it wasn't exactly a necessity, i was just doing it coz i could...so, it was good that said friend gathered up the balls to tell me not to :) saying 'no' is an important skill...i don't exactly look like a person people want to deny stuff (i really don't mind though, like another friend almost very correctly said, i hardly get upset!!)people are always trying to be diplomatic, and this too is another vicious circle and again i sound like a hypocrite because even i cannot say no to people...life would be much easier if i could, I'm just trying to survive in this world man, cut me some slack (everybody deserves to be cut some slack, but we all suck at that too) im not a saint, but neither is anybody else...there are so many needs of the world you have to fulfill, you have to be helpful, borderline empathic (they all expect you to show oodles of empathy, but they show a bare minimum of it themselves) and 'normal' enough for the world to accept you, if i could, i would shun all 'extra' obligations and friends, sit at home (my nice new 'private' home, not the one with the roommates)...eat..sleep...come only for classes....and communicate only via facebook or something...but that's how 'social life' takes you away from this awkward stunted vision...you want to come around after college, listen to bullshit spoken by people...gotta see certain people...need the company of some people you like and people you have become too used to, indulge in certain activities that are entertaining (movies, gaming)...you gotta somehow have good clothes and also figure out a way to wear them well so that the world doesn't call you an 'uncivilized freak', some people are able to carry of that look, me too sometimes, but it's nice to dress slightly attractively sometimes :) makes ya feel nice...why? because you know it's raising people's opinion of you, we're all made of other people's opinions at the end of the day.....

random thought: do you need, all that companionship that you're all so proud to have?? "ooh i have so many friends, they love me so much" are you really proud of all our friends?? or are most of them there just to passively use you while you're under the impression of 'being cared for'...?? ?

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Now playing: Yeah yeah yeahs - They don't love you like I love you
via FoxyTunes

deep and meaningless

exam time could easily be the most boring ever...usually you give someone a call and go for dinner or meet up for coffee or something (this sounds terribly similar to a casual date with someone of the opposite sex but sadly, it isn't, I'm referring to my male friends).

now during 'exam time', every minute spent outside having even the quintessential 'dinner' seems full of some kind of guilt...not heavy guilt, just a feeling of "fuck, we should be back home studying"

it's not like I'm so social a person that i can't live without going out with my friends and eating, but it's become part of my routine and not exactly avoidable (I'm not heavily inclined to avoid my friends either)

before i switch to my "hmmm, what should i write today?" mode...I'd like to say something about my last post....in no way was i undermining the obvious 'talent' of the people who can just somehow make every phrase in a set of phrases rhyme with the one above... (how in the name of the devil does one do that?)

writing angry and dark lyrics seems like a great way to 'let stuff out', now that, is something everyone is always trying to do even more than the 'romantic' ones...it's usually something on the lines of 'hate', 'being ignored' and 'suffering', well...not everyone is in love, so somebody has to write about these too, which some feel more than others, and more than other emotions...

ok, now, i don't have much to write about...had some thoughts, they've kinda managed to sip my mind, Grrrr.....

i just realized that facebook can be really really addictive...the best place to stalk someone, hehe...i dunno why they generalize 'stalkers', everyone, is always, stalking somebody or the other...there is always someone you wanna know more about...and will do all the simple simple un-extreme things you can anonymously do..to do just that!! snooping/stalking is a pretty fun activity, everyone does it, we're all a bit curious and a bit perverted...and the internet facilitates it anyways...it's a boring life, gotta have some adventure and stupid pointless entertaining fun around here ;) i don't see anybody with the 'perfect life' here...nobody who you ca be jealous of, we're all losers at different levels..and it's all cool this way :) ah, beautiful beautiful cruel merciless world...what would we do without the little quirks in all you humans....



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Now playing: Rooster - You're So Right For Me
via FoxyTunes

random thought: you realize it's so hard to find someone you can completely completely trust?? and that it actually is so much better this way????

"aren't we all great writers?"

"aren't we all great writers?" this was my msn nick sometime ago (maybe still is,will have to check)

when i look at song lyrics, or poems, or read one of these strange books with a million metaphors being used for explaining something as simple as "it was a monsoon day, and (duh) it was raining in so and so village" i feel intimidated...i mean, not anymore...ok let's change the topic.

song lyrics and poems (let's stick to these) are usually so well written, the romantic words (i guess it's understood by now that im not talking about death metal lyrics here) the splattering of feelings across the world's eyes...and it seems like this display of talent, but it's much more than that, the person writing these lyrics, is totally opening up his/her heart for all to see, not everyone can do that...maybe i have feelings inside me more intense than those of the song im listening to, but can i build-up the courage to put them out to the world? isn't every boy of my age trying to build up a strong,manly image for the world to see?? the writers and the poets are considered 'sensitive men'. i think they're the strong ones...all us others don't have the balls to let the world know the degree of our feelings, that we care, about other things than all things sexual....everything is inherently cheesy if it involves the 'L' word (referring to 'Love' here) note: this discussion isn't applicable only to the boys, but people in general...

for people who know me, i know i know i sound like a hypocrite because i find almost everything cheesy, but cmon, cut me some slack here....somethings are way too cheesy to be 'romantic' from any angle except the bollywood one!!

recently I've come across some words written by a couple of friends, something scribbled at the back of a notebook....something floating around as a note on facebook...something blogged away at an unknown link....i feel for these people. the secret writer's misery is even worse than the song lyrics writer...somethings can't be put in words, even more impossible is to put these things in rhymes, but for those who manage it and can let someone read it. hats off...you got balls. i feel intensely, but the last thing i would want to do is complicate my life by putting my feelings 'out there', this blog might be a nice place to let stuff out..but not everything :) some words are best left unspoken....

if i ever triad to write a song, poem or something...I'd probably not get a word out out of my fear of mockery...it's a sad, sad world. you can't care 'zero' about it. people suck, gotta deal with it...



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Now playing: The Perishers - Weekends
via FoxyTunes

not much to say, got much to do......

often we get a sort of 'negative vibe' from people and wonder- "what's wrong, did i do something that he/she doesn't like but isn't telling me? why don't these assholes come out with it huh? why be cowards and hide their true opinion of me? why doesn't he/she rise up to the challenge, confront me and tell me what he/she thinks of me??"

now, have you ever stopped and wondered, would you ever do the same?? would you just go confront your close friends and tell them that they're annoying and wish did not exist at times? the answer is no... (in most cases, unless you're feeling mean,hehe, but jokes apart...) we have learned to live with all our friends' flaws and are cool with it, can't expect my friend to be like, not an asshole at all, at times everyone's allowed to be a prick...it's entertaining :)and keeps the spontaneity in the group...some people who are way too perfect are disliked too...in the "what did this person learn in his earlier years?? how can he/she be/act so naive??" stuff like that....sometimes you learn to adore a person's flaws..but we're not gonna discuss that..er...also to be clear, this isn't exactly a discussion forum,just a blog :)

in other news, me and two of my non-smoking friend(s) were feeling bored and making statements like "man i wish we guys had something for pure timepass like these smokers, something non addictive, not harmful for health,and enjoyable" and so we set out to try these ultra low tobacco/nicotine (apparently flavored?) cigarettes called gudang garam now these were supposed to taste/feel like cloves and such, but it was such a horrible experience!! why do people smoke anything??i hate the feeling of smoke on me...my hands smelled weird after trying it....lame...stale smell...i would never be able to make out with someone who smelled like smoke (one of my friends shares this opinion of mine)!!!

so it was a bad experience, all we did was crib about cigarettes and smokers the rest of the night....

in even more recent news, me and three of my friends, on two bikes went to this beautiful amazing heavenly place in some hills some kilometers behind his house...and had an awesome time there :) there we indulged in some cool exhilarating off-roading 'exercises' on our bikes, checked out some fun obstacle course things,we even followed a stream to reach a hidden-ish waterfall, had a great time overall...will be going there with more people again some time later...

nothing much going on besides all this....going on....living in a world with flaws like it has taught us to...it's all pretty uphill. bah!!! i need to see a goodmovie, 'next' sucked, bad animation,sucky story,dumb acting....

'the brave one' is the only good movie I've seen this month....thoroughly impressed.

'bhool bhulaiya' had it's humorous moments, but otherwise was a drag

'feast of love' was entertaining,but pretty predictable....i liked it anyways :)

I've been pretty happy happy this month, there is this song called 'into yesterday' by 'sugar ray' that's so uplifting....really nice. have been going on more of my late night musical walks, and have been really enjoying them too. also have had some temper losses during the month, but anyways, my temper is very short lived like always, so i can barely remember anything to write about these..'angry' events....

im slowly finishing off long overdue chores from my to-do list, preparing to finally shift out of this hell-hole and into my new house...which im gonna so enjoy living in, ah....even thinking about it makes me crave that life, damn....

random thought:-
it's hard to move on in life when the feelings at the 'back of your head' are like a ten tonne anchor telling you "yeah right, go ahead, you couldn't win here, what you gonna do elsewhere?" in these situations is it still the 'back' of your head?? or a dominating mutated obsessive overall brain disorder egging you to take drastic measures??

The last few days have been quite a lot of fun, went for a great concert. Had a lot of fun. Learned some lessons. I'm living with anleey and Sam (sam sundar, our senior) in a tiny apartment (hah! Apartment) an d it sucks :( I mean, I like friends coming over and stuff, but what happened to my old life? In my aundh house….I had alone time, privacy, and a kinda homely environment….I'm not very much into the 'decorating the home' thing but I miss my home nevertheless :(
most probably I'll be shifting into my new apartment in October, I pray it doesn't get delayed.

I severely miss my home and a good night's sleep, and good meals. I feel like wild animal taken out of his natural habitat for too long!! There are way too many social activities I'm indulging in, enjoyable, but not very fulfilling, they're very (BLANK) it's like I'm stuck in the same routine whatever I do, a loop. College-eat-game-sleep-eat-gym-eat-sleep ARRGH!!! Actually I think the gym is the only good thing about the routine, and yeah college too, hehe. I used to attend all classes In the first semester around. I'm sounding very pathetic right now and totally contradicting my apparently 'adventurous' and 'always up for anything' attitude but I couldn't be more honest. My independence is gone (except when I go on solitary trips to other cities) also my bike is always with someone else, I seem to have a problem saying no to people, I mean I want to help, and don't mind sacrificing my use of the bike, but not all the time!!! And why me?

Where is my alone time? Where are my singular self-affecting impulsive decisions? And the activities I used to indulge in that affected only me? Which I only wrote about in this blog :( I think my impulsive decisions now come only from a subconscious need for deviation from the routine…but I don't exactly hate routines..hmmm…my routine when I lived alone was sadder, but I think I was happier :( when with roommates, I can't listen to those gay-ass songs I used to listen to all the time when I was living alone :-)

And I also want these poor cats to be treated and fed better…which only I can provide in my new house…I think. I want to sit in my balcony, sipping iced tea, reading a book(which I used to do frequently when I lived alone, the reading, and the tea, both) staring at the weird view (which is going to be only a building being constructed across the compound around the time I shift in, but whatever) and get away from the position of being so close to college, and things…and people….I like, and indulge(or try my best to) in way too much.

Life is pretty much stuck, not good stuck, bad stuck, I don't care, but I worry. I want to just go ahead and do certain things that I want to do…but can't. it is unexplainable. Voids and cycles are better than dead ends. But dead ends have a sweet finality to them. Which you can move on from…

I just got a new phone btw (now coming back to the 'this blog is about a stupid teenagers rants about overly usual stuff' - mode) it's pretty nice…a nokia 5500…


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Now playing: Bullet for My Valentine - All These Things I Hate
via FoxyTunes

Grrrr....slightly

ok, this is, an impulse post...by that i mean, that i didn't think of anything to write before i started writing this. so what can i possibly write about? im feeling a bit shitty right now, kinda my own doing. (a lot shitty actually)

and, home isn't very inviting anymore...it doesn't seem, homely...yet...much.

im just biding my time, waiting for a better hour (bullshit way of saying, im not very happy, but am very optimistic about being so in the future)

indulging in songs by 'ben kweller' and this song called 'forever young' by 'youth group', forever young, is just awesome (i think its a cover of a old abba song but im not sure)..love the lyrics, music, everything.

im just, kinda sad :( at the moment...gonna take refuge in my big headphones and the great healer and friend...hah, 'friend', i've always disregarded the word...truth is, all friends are temporary...the only good ones are those you don't have to keep getting constant assurances from to be sure that they still like ya, the ones you talk to the least, and still don't feel fucking guilty. the ones you don't have any fucking awkwardness talking about anything ever. 'friends', are overrated.

Also, many times, I'm way too diplomatic (it doesn't show) for my own sake…I don't want everyone to feel great, no I don't, but this fucking automatic reflexive diplomacy fuck it all up. I don't want extra friends, they're a liability.

And yes, I hate those people who start clinging to you just coz you say a few nice words to em….super liabilities and irritations. many of them too naïve to 'tell off'.

another monthly (or slightly off) post...and yeah, MAC+PC marriage???

first of all, forgive the new 'look' of the blog, i hate it too...it's like im pretending to be one of those 'minimalistics' and that too with some sad ad-ish links up there..i'll change it back to the same thing again, and maybe with the help of lemonade, into something totally awesome :)

since my last post (currently looking at my blog to see when that was) ah, now, let's start over...since my last post many things have happened which provoked me to write about them...some of them were:-

- the wild crazy/fun night with vihan,anurag,tanmay and achintya (no, there wasn't any sex involved)
- the trip to mahabaleshwar. with vihan,anurag, and landry...tanmay couldn't make it (actually a lot of the people who were supposed to come couldn't make it, arseholes)
- me getting utterly bored in gwalior
- oh yeah, how could i possibly forget? the mighty crash of my 400 gb harddisk :( it was a tragedy beyond words (even my bro's harddisk kinda crashed, but he recovered the data)
- my oh so lovely installation of windows vista which is so sexy i could just hump it
- my carrying the kittens in my gym bag to avanti's house :) (not exactly a legendary event but it was very 'unique')
- my viewing of the utterly overrated and pathetic movie "a beautiful mind" (what was so beautiful about his mind?? he was a complete whacko!!! like a snot nosed 10 year old kid who imagines that he is a G.I.Joe,weak,lame,Pfff)
- Cancellation of my plans to go to delhi, this really sucked...royally, i could have met my completely crazy comrade peu. well, whatever. guess i was destined to be bored and deprived these vacations...

but now, the thing that totally shook me up, the super shock, was the fact that the only way i could make my brother's macbook pro connect to the internet was through a windows PC!! i mean, this throws everything i know down the ditch, WTF!!!!

the wireless on the mac would detect our home wireless network, but not connect to it whatever i did, i tried different security levels, totally zero security, different authentication settings, manual DNS and IP etc. entry..nothing worked, then i tried connecting the Laptop to our router through the RJ-45 patch cable, and the router wouldn't even acknowledge a device connected to it...and then, out of a desperate hope, i connected the macbook to my laptop,the one with with windows vista ultimate on it and ICS (Internet Connection Sharing) enabled, and withing seconds, the mac was accessing the internet!! i mean, what the bloody fuck man!! this was like, blasphemy!! total crazy shit.....

the route for the mac to the internet was this(solid lines being wires, dotted ones being wireless)

Mac____cross cable______my laptop= = = =wi-fi= = = =Router____DSL line________Internet

truly amazed man, seriously, the apple people are fed up trying to help us, now tomorrow when i tell that guy all my problems for now are solved, they would be surprised that this method helped us :)

ok maybe i've ranted too much about this and some geek might want to correct me with a "dude, where have you been? i knew about this since ages" (well, as nobody visits my blog i probably won't get such a message, but still) sorry dude, i've not been much into the Mac thing...

sorry about not elaborating on the previously mentioned 'potential post topics' but here's a little bit, windows vista is awesome looks great, and has the option i alway s wanted of being able to access another the files of another user on the same computer by putting in his/her password....the mahabaleshwar trip was great, even with only 4 people!! just awesome, broke my slipper just outside mahabaleshwar as we were climbing into some wilderness where these guys wanted to drink beer, and thus had to ride my bike to panchgani barefoot :) it was kinda hard coz it was a hot day and at traffic stops it was hard to put my foot down, was constantly 'ooh' 'aah' 'ouch'-ing and rocking the bike from side to side, hehe...funny sight for fellow motorists...pictures here and here.

i also have been playing 'god of war 2' on my friend's PS2, awesome game, really good...now i wish i had a PS2...also i fixed up my PSP with this great new custom firmware which lets me use all homebrew and the awesome new features of firmware 3.03 :) also i can now convert and run PS1 games on the PSP, run great...also a friend of mine bought a PS3, and seeing the hacking possibilities of the same on PS3-hacks.com i seriously wish i had one :( not for games, just for all this shit :)

i also saw the movie 'lords of dogtown', really nice movie, so fulfilling, i love movies like this....

and yeah one more thing, i was watching garden state and heard this song in the end in Imogen Heap's voice, and thought "that's funny, i have all her good songs, besides this, and this sounds pretty good" and then i waited for the credits to roll and it hit me, Imogen heap was in Frou Frou!! no wonder i was missing out on this awesome music...ok, Frou Frou discography, here i come!!!

injustice, kittens (finally!!), and loads of multiplayer gaming.

alrite then, lemme start

16th April - my exams started, gave one, and went to ishaan's place to study for the next one (17th) , on the way back (actually just dropping anleey) i was on my bike, another bike, with a woman at the back and her son driving it, stopped/slowed on the side, we kept on going and as we came behind it on the right, they turned into our way and BLAM!! after this impact my bike also hit another bike...anleey and me were on the ground all scraped up...and kinda hazy and stuff, and all these people started surrounding us, apparently some people had already taken the injured woman to the hospital...and while i woke up asking "what happened?" everyone was getting hostile around me, as if it was my fault, people shoving me and anleey around...treating us like criminals, when all i wanted to do was go home..and i had full right to, lemme make this clear, there is nothing about this accident that i regret...it was totally their fault. now as we were forced to go to the hospital (we cooperated so as to not create a scene, and as they had told me about the woman going to the hospital i was concerned) i realised that there was going to be no justice, and no truth, in this situation. i was being screamed at by every bloody person except one or two people who were actually listening to me and helping me out, one of these guys said to me "the woman had spondilitis, so it is even more serious, right now just tolerate their accusations else they'll become aggressive" well, i listened, spoke minimally, and hoped for the best...and felt extremely violated at the same time, the woman had multiple fractures in her right arm, a shoulder dislocation, and had to get stitches on her head. the policeman came and took my statement...which was the exact truth..and their accusation "we were going slowly because my mother has a back problem, and these people came at a speed of 80-90 kmph and hit us from behind!!" (on law college road? in traffic at 11 p.m? are you kidding me?)well, then the elder son (the one not driving) comes to me, yells a bit more, accuses even more, and says "i won't do a police case if you pay the hospital bills" and i agreed (at this point i should have called me father, but stupidly, felt a bit scared). but i knew my father would handle it, and also felt that i might get some justice, in a way. so i went home, with my bike keys, papers, and my license (which i had given to the police) now in the custody of the son of that woman (whose husband had now arrived too).
these people had come to an arrangement with the police, to let me go give my exams (which i had mentioned to them earlier) because i had agreed to give them the money, and anyway they had my signed statement and could do the police case anytime, i was kinda relieved coz the police case seemed like a big hassle and troublesome. dhriv and sarjeet had arrived and had convinced them to do this...so i went home, took care of my wounds and went to sleep...next day i wake up and call my dad and explain the situation, now my dad, after the initial scolding about not calling him right away, told me to tell them to go ahead with the police case. i was like HUH? then he explained to me that if they went ahead with the police case, as it was not my fault i would just have to plead 'not guilty' in the court and my bike's third party insurance would pay for the damages (hospital bills) so i thought 'ok' and went on with my life.....

now a couple of days later with a friend of my dad's who had come to help me out with the situation (all this time my bike was with them) we go to them and tell them that the insurance thing will cover their bills...and then they started screaming at me you're drifting away from your promise!! you said you would pay the bills!! i mean, how hard is it to understand that you will get the money anyways?? maybe even more!! just not directly from my pocket...and anyway (this wasn't even mentioned to them once, you had to be there to get why) it was not my fault!! damned people.

so after a lot of arguing and a lot of we don't want your insurance! we don't want to get involved in a police case! give us our damn money! my dad agreed to pay their bills in cash...directly...and it was a significant amount, and i was pissed about it, very.

26th April they finally gave my bike...and guess what?? the rear view mirrors, and the battery...were gone. disappeared, and the petrol was all gone too...with the pipe disconnected....

this was the worst luck, and the worst form of injustice, i have been a victim of, so far.

now on to the kittens :-)

we (me and anleey) recently got these two kittens

pictureshere

really cute and fun, and easy to take care of. pretty stupid though...shake one's tail in front of him, and it grabs it like a predator, wtf?

also, us guys (me,dhriv,ishan,anleey,rupin,revant etc) have been playing worms (like always) and counterstrike a lot lately, i basically suck at it..but have become slightly better :-) in a certain level i took a magnum (powerful sniper) once and did not die until they changed the map, survived many, many rounds and eliminated the opposing team :-) that was some luck, i think.

anyway, it's been fun, and sad, these last days of April...and i will be all alone for most of may (till around 16th) lets make the nest of it, at least i have the kittens with me :-) for whom we are looking for a place coz i have to go home for a bout a month and can't take them with me coz im not going directly to gwalior...and yeah, they are anleey's kittens (kinda,technically,damn,not really, no yeah,er...) and he can't take them to Dubai with him either...

OK, lets pray for more animal adventures and less bike accidents :-)

and of yeah!! i forgot to mention o went for this great concert in mumbai, a launch concert for an annual un-metal music compilation CD, amazing concert...totally worth the long trip :-) great bands..great music...great sound setup...also met rakshit and hitesh, was back in less than 24 hours.

the cats by the way, are really active, i could make a separate blog about their activities...

oh also, i made a seperate blog for the kittens here :-)

this desperately needed a title...still does

"Ever had the feeling that you need to be totally alone?? Totally away from all your imperfect extremely flawed pretentious fucked up friends?? There has/have been only one or two people in my life who I've truly enjoyed being with in every shitty situation."

this was in my 'drafts' don't remember why..i change my mind too often :-)

well this is gonna be another nonsensical post...about routine stuff gone wrong.
i've killed a lot of cockroaches, a week ago, and my maid still isn't here to clean em up,Grrrrrr....

also, my bournvita (thing you add to milk to make it 'chocolate milk',-ish) was getting over...so...i bought this new drink called 'boost', mainly because it had 'now more chocolaty!!' printed on it. and i liked that idea. it was a half Kg (500gm) packet. and so i threw the little bit of bournvita that was left (would have been good for two glasses) coz i was excited about this 'boost' thingy...and as i mixed it with the warm milk...took one sip and thought "oh my god i've ruined my life".

i'm never listening to advertisements again. sheesh...

besides that (i use these two words lot huh? 'besides that')

ok, besides that i re-visited my vampirefreaks account, and man this place is good...i've heard so much good music playing in people's players...good shit.

also hey!!! check out these two cool sites,here and here. take my word for em :-)

depression...entertainment!!!!

I've been feeling kinda down lately, the aura is like dry dry bland bland, only thing keeping me like my usual jolly self is bash.org :-) oh how i love that site!! IRC itself isn't as much fun as this site though....Im a kinda misfit there i'd say...I like the new 'our song' sony ericsson ad. Shit bbc world looks so beautiful on my old tv screen, im sure it's an hd convert. I really don't know what is bringing me down so much...But anyway, most probably it's because life feels so stagnant when you're in college, the lives of the partygoers seems so lucrative and attractive.But, actually going to a club or party can be such torture...There is just so much you have to be, and so much you have to live up to....If you know what i mean. (you prolly stands for me here, coz nobody reads this blog except me methinks, i just like venting it here) i feel like traveling the world for a year, getting away from everyone i know, every bloody person...Just me and my iPod....Where i can totally forget every person i like, every person im getting sick of...And the people i should probably get over (quite a few, im NOT Talking about silly crushes,only) ah.....Depression, and there is nobody who can pull me out of it, i don't like talking to people about it..Just blogging. It's so personal-ish, yet blogging about it feels good. Every day seems like a conspiracy. There is a disconnection setting in. And for some reason, and this is unexplainable, i feel more geeky than ever...But there is a bright side to this (the disconnection)...I can get household work done.Kinda, not that i enjoy this brightness.

ok, this is a two day post, the text in the last paragraph was yesterday, today, im feeling better, Geekier!!! and entertained :-) coz me, anleey, rushil and prateek had a gala time playing a 4 player 'worms world party' game...man this game is awesome!!! exploding flying sheep, exploding old women, suicide bombing, punching people off cliffs into water....team based gameplay....homing exploding pigeons. Yeah!!! ok im off.gotta catch the preview show of 'last king of scotland'!!! hope they don't run out of tickets...

btw i typed this whole blog entry on my cellphone, coz sahil was using my comp..... a new height of geekiness!!!

monthly post, trips and accidents...

alritey then,
where were we? my blog entries are becoming so infrequent, many times i have things on my mind but just procrastinate their posting..

now since my last post, the major stuff that has happened is the smashing in of anleey's face...and some similar but lesser injuries to ishan. the trip onwards from there to an amazing beach at divyagarh (if that is how you spell it) i had offered anleey my helmet when he got out of the car to sit on the bike, i think about this everyday :-( coz he didn't take it and it would have been so much better if he did, Grrr.... wish the laws regarding helmets were stricter, people should be charged 5000 bucks for not wearing helmets, it should be like using your headlight at night, totally necessary.

i've discovered (or rediscovered) Lily Allen's music...pretty damn good :-) also some music from artists like 'cute is what we aim for', 'boys like girls', 'gym class heroes','the red jumpsuit apparatus' and 'the midway state'...the o.c had been pretty irritating, though quite funny, of late..and it had a nice needed end, finally. 'cute is what we aim for' has such great lyrics that i can totally relate to.

watching prison break right now...and waiting for the parts of my bike to come so i can totally fix it up for once.the hero honda people are pretty slow in this sense, maybe coz it is a new bike...but they're really organized atleast.

the ride to divyagarh was really tiring...but nice :-) the two injured (anleey and ishan) really missed out on a lot..also the other guys who went back to the hospital with them. the trip consisted of loads of people, after the 5 ppl went back in godwin's car (the two injured, gdwin driving, dhriv and sahil accompanying) all us other tired bikers needed to rest around somewhere...so we decided to go on to the beach, which was almost 80 kilometres away!! and had some fun there...came back (lost rupin and shaima on the way back, some confusion, but they reached) it was a great trip aside from the casualties...it was great to see all the organization and responsibility everyone showed...these are the kinds of friend anyone would be proud to have :-) i don't know how, but i wish i could somehow prove to my parent's that i am in good company,hehe.

let's see.what else?? oh yeah we had gone to lonavala some time before this trip, approximately 20 hours....

i just found this sit, and it has the funniest shit ever!!
check this out-

an excerpt from a certain online conversation, found on bash.org:-


get up
get on up
get up
get on up
and DANCE
* nmp3bot dances :D-<
* nmp3bot dances :D|-<
* nmp3bot dances :D/-<
<[SA]HatfulOfHollow> i'm going to become rich and famous after i invent a device that allows you to stab people in the face over the internet

i've been laughing so much lately, uncontrollably!!

now i seriously have bloggers block...can't think of anything much to say. sike.

songs, movies and emotions.... (why did i add that last word???)

okay, so i had to sing 'outside' by 'staind' at the unify 07 western vocals thingy and also 'last kiss' by 'pearl jam' with this other guy kushal, went pretty well :-) people seemed surprised to discover that i sing. it was fun, hehe. overall the whole event was great...i've shared pics and videos on facebook and my youtube account (kinda linked). a certain competing band covered 'hey jude' by 'the Beatles' which was so bloody amazing!!!

and today i saw three movies, here are some words on them:-

• Music and lyrics - your typical romantic comedy, really liked it, drew barrymore is fucking cute...it was really really funny too!! had the grand ending type thing in it, really really good music...gonna get the soundtrack. worth a watch.hehe. i like these kind of movies.
• Eklavya - visually stunning, good story, in a way, but personally i found it kinda boring, although it was kinda good that it had only one song....
• Bridge to terabithia - now, this one i went in expecting a 'chronicles of narnia' type fantasy adventure, but it turned out to be pretty different, and way deeper than that...this isn't exactly a movie for kids, i dunno, but an adult would clearly see the beauty in it...of the children's imagination, blah blah etc. it had some really sad parts, really really sad....and yeah, if i was a kid who had come to see a fun movie, i would be mentally going "what the fuck??" (well not literally) or "yeh kya bakwaas hai!!" but as an adult which i kinda think i am, hehe....i really liked it....worth a watch...touching.

ok, this kinda ends it i guess...erm. life needs more events to be put up!!

and yeah, the videos:-

Outside -



last kiss -